maybe im not..

i stared hard at the pc screen looking at the amount of my salary for this month.

i was like.. whaaattt *curse*curse*curse*curse summore* (i know its not healthy n morale okey)

so i thought, im done here practicing. (when i jussst got my PC yesterday and i jusssst attested one document with my new signature yg baru je dipracticed byk kali smalam..hoho i memang jakun like that)

and yesterday there was a brief visit from the bankers, they talked about property bla3 interest rates bla3 economy bla3. i cudnt understand.. well.. letssay 3quarter of the whole meeting. i was like ..syaiiitt..... bapak susah nye mende ni i seriously have to buy some guide for banking & conveyancing for dummies

and i thought, thats it. maybe im not cut out to be a lawyer. im seriously considering pursuing my master - in watever field i cud not careless. yep, im indefinite, no specific goal/destination like that.

as long as i dont hv to work my ass off (not actually work la becoz i just took up some files..and some is not even half of wat the other lawyers are currently on, ho ho) and got paid this... low.

and today was supposed to be a big happy grin day for me.

but i , first thing in the morning i read tame's blog, and then ky's blog..and then all the emotions start rushing in..huhu sedey la diorang nye entry pasal mama. me being gifted with mama's natural talent in mata termasuk habuk, of kos la dah berair2 mata ha..kelang kabut cari tissue. haha. harap2 tade org nampak.. and then i watched ky's pics and the 2 budak kecik yg sgt la rindu nye.. pastu nampak iqbal senyum sgt comel OKEY dan luqman yg mcm biase muke sengal sket die tuh..haha dan sgt sayang nye rasa.. rindu gile ngan ky sekuarge!!

and it hit me; nak gi obersea ah nak jumpe ky ! best je tgk diorang jalan2..bergumbira..

aiyoh..and being a perempuan in PMS mode doesnt help either..

but now i ve pulled myself together.. gaji not as expected sbb aku pun masuk keje lambat.. 6/10 arituh.. of kos la die tolak..ahahah bengong me!

butstill, i seriously need to read some books on this. hmmmmm

on the bright, pretending to be cheerful as if gaji rm5k note;

yeayy~ malam ni someone's dream(at least one of the too many dreams) is coming true~! yeap lets wait for it ;))

yeayy~~ alhamdulillah mama getingg better now siap masakkan sarapan roti canai segera+ kuah kari..thanks mam luv yu! xoxo

n seriously, need to go workout on my bajet sbb bajet lari mcm sprinter! laju abes...

so..maybe im not cut out to be one.. but maybe im not done here yet.. letssee for tomorrowsss....lets hope for a brighter sunshines..

and..lets sing some oasis..

Cause all of the stars

Are fading away

Just try not to worry

You'll see them some day

Take what you need

and be on your way

and stop crying your heart out

and its bloody irritating when i already put some enter between the paragraph but stil bile publish post ni sume mcm sambung para je.. wekkkkk benci