SUNday surVEY

Salaam.
good day ppl :)

mcm bes je kan jawab survey2 nih. so lets do it-for the sake of today's post. oh ya, btw this is a 90questions survey. if ure tired or hate surveys, u may skip this entry, no problem :)

90. First off, what is your name?
Aalaa' bt Mohd Esa

89. What did you do last night?
hmm..not much. makan nasi, tgk cite 'chah', mandi, tido

88. Do you have a same sex best friend that you can talk to 24/7?
yeapss

87. Do you have any siblings?
ade lg 6 -2 sisters, 4 brothers

86. Where are you exactly?
home, kat ruang tengah. enjoying my SUNday..^^

85. Favorite color(s)?
blue, green, red - all the basic colors

84. What does the 7th message in your [cell] text inbox say?
hm..7th from the top kan?
from: Nazha~ - usrah hari selase, 1 mei, kat umah k anfal, kul 230
hahaha appeared baik pulak me suddenly.

83. Who sits beside you in math?
my last math class was at skool dulu, so che'pah la kot.

82. Who sits to the left of you in english?
ehm..EAP class-either atikah or husna. haha

81. Where is your dad right now?
outside, berkebun or sumthin like that

80. Do you have any kids?
mine, nope. my sis n my brother punye anak ade la

79. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from?
aiseh tade la. ntah kenape, this phone stores only 3 miscalls ive had.

78. Closest black object?
my handphone

77. Closest silver object?
this mic punye besi ke apentah

76. Have you ever jumped a fence for any reason?
jumped? tak penah. panjat? penah.

75. Do you sing in the shower?
kadang2 sahaje, - unconsciously

72. Last time you listened to country music?
pg tadi ade kot,, lagu sheryl crow ke sapentah kat mix.

70. If you could kill someone, who would it be?
sape eh,, kalo tgh tgk Malim Kundang tu, rase nak bunuh je Intan dalam cite uh..huh sungguh emo

69. What are your fears?
losing ppl i love, wars

68. What do you hear right now?
weezer - butterfly (credits to imang. sgt relaxing lagu ini. me likey!)

67. How many drugs are in ur system right now?
dah lame tak makan ubat

65. What are you wearing?
3quarters (shirt, pants)

64. Who was the last person to give testimonial to you?
kak reha

63. Do you sing?
when im listening to the song n know the lyrics. my voice isnt good enuff to sing to ppl (or in public) tho.

62. Screamo or Country?
depends on the mood

61. Rock or Rap?
rawkk!

60. Chocolate or vanilla?
VANILLA of course!

59. Who did you last call?
uswah - spreading sizzling hot story~ huahaha

58. Who last called you?
zaza

57. What jewelry do you wear daily?
im jewellery-less

56. What are you doing now?
currently answering this survey question to put up in this blog

55. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
cant remember

54. Would you die for someone?
maybe. not sure. depending on the situation tho

53. If so, who?
ppl i love

52. Are you cold right now?
nope. its tengahari la kot

51. What do you smell right now?
nothing in the air

50. Do you have to pee right now?
nope

49. What did you dream about last night?
cant remember

48. What are you doing tomorrow?
going to uia, wat clearance and sending my DSLP application form-if they wont mind about the full transcript

44. Bedsheet color?
greyish blue,grey,white

42. Carpet or wood in your room?
tiles

41. Bad rumor about yourself that you've heard?
-that im freehair-hahahahha SANGAT absurd isnt it (haha ingat lg la kan..way back like 7yrs ago)
-that i told evryone jb ALWAYS borrowed my car - padehal he never borrowed mine, n i NEVER said to anyone like that .tagune punye pembawa cerite si tepung gomak. huahaha jahat tol haku nih

38. Can you do a cartwheel?
nope.

37.What's your favorite candle scent?
vanilla ke, bunge2 ke,asalkan wangi dan tak pening.not really interested in candles.

35. America or Canada?
america kot. heh.tp byk crimes.

34. What makes you mad?
reckless driver n yet he put a muke garang on me. blah le >:(

33. What if you found out you were adopted?
haha ntah. cant be. cuz my frens said my face REAALLY resembles my papa. haha

32. Jeans or Sweatpants?
jeans

29. Do you have socks on?
nope

28. Do you own any big sunglasses?
intending to buy one. looks cool isnt it.

27. Have you ever cried so hard you puked?
not that i remember

23. Have you recently talked to an ex?
nope

22. Person who posted this before you?
kak rabi'ah at frenster bulletin

19. Favorite TV show?
PB, one tree hill, kyle xy

18. Do you like 80s movies?
nope

16. Last two numbers in your cell phone number?
96

15. What kinda music do you like?
anything that please my ears. generally rock.cececey. tp pop rnb dan lain2 tu boleh la.kan asalkan it please me ears.

14. Are you a crazy stalker?
nope.haha not up to the level of crazy. hahahah

13. Best country you've visited?
ive only visited a few. really few. n among them all madinah kot best

12. Been to London?
nope. nak peginye!

10. Favorite subject at school?
hmm dunno la. usually i talk in class, so cudnt concentrate one. hahaha

9. Been to college?
aha! just graduated from iium :)

7. Favorite time of day?
morning . from 7 - 1045am

6. Ever kissed someones cheek?
yes..mi mama, mi grandma

5. Watch all Spiderman movie?
yeSS! cant wait to see the 3rd! i Luv spiderman, but i reaally2 hate peter parker (tobey mcguire) haha

3. What are you looking forward to?
cant think of anything rite now. oh ha, maybe nadia's wedding. oh ha lg satu cant wat to get my first allowance ujung bulan 5 nih. haha keje pun tak start agi ;p

2. Ever jeopardize someone's life?
dunno

1. Do you snore?
not that i recall. but who knows.hahah

haha best pulak menjawab soalan2 survey nih. maybe i'll do it again next time . til then, have a good sunday ppl! :)

p/s: selamat bertunang to my friend who doesnt want to disclose her engagement day. hahaha well maybe she wont be reading this anyway. i just pray for her happiness, n semoge berbahgia ke akhir hayat. haha cam ucapan kawen la plak

another crap

dear mr blog.
lately i dont feel like posting any new entry on this blog. just dont feel like being myself. n oh here's another crap from me.

i cant take it.
i hate being controlled
i want to be i control
i want to take charge
i have no means to do so
so i just have to go on
just go a lil bit more,
a lil bit more
i hate doing things when i dont feel like doing
i hate doing things i hate
i hate my weaknesses
seems like its hard to like myself even
tell me it isnt me,
tell me its the society
when i look around
want to scream out,
wanna hit the ground
i cant take it
but im working on it
working on it
seems like the more i try
the more i realize
that i may never see the best of me
but i cant cry
cuz hey im stil alive
stil got the chance in life
just wana be happy
so hold a trust for urself
and do whats worth for you
i'll bet you'll be happy
be happy
so dont you hesitate
you've got no time to waste
just try to get a lil bit more
a lil bit more
just try to go a lil bit more
a lil bit more

this is certainly not a poem for i am no poet. just another sodding crap.
kinda mixed it up with a song lyrics. haha thats why sometimes it rhymes and the other times it doesnt.goodbye for now. here we go, another plastic face to put on ;)

kisah si malang

okay so wat do u call sumone who tried so many things olredi n things ALWAYS went wrong? u call that person si Alak yang malang. dan pembawa malang. shes like a badluck charm to evryone. geddit.

n wat do u call a thing yg bo*o pastu cam b*** gak pastu cm super *****ng bo** gak pastu cm tahpape pastu menyakitkan hati ? u call it h** yg r****! a super screwed one, dan menjadi pemangkin yg memalangkan si malang Alak itu.


put the two together, jadi la situasi yg malang pade mase ini.
sekian

oh dan ribuan terime kasih kepada orang2 sekeliling yg telah membantu men soothing kan si malang ini . haha . u know who u are. cewah taksal.

Cakap-cakap kosong

Salaam

uhm, i was asked to do the DSLP, so i asked around. oh! rupenye the application form, essay, slip gaji etc hafta be submitted by 30th april nih!! haha. seems like i got like 9 days to prepare sume2 tuh.gile last minute lah me!! hmm. looks like there's sumthing to keep myself bz this coming week. i dont like to be busy. but thats the only way to keep me sane. haha. hmphh.........


Result - mine was PELIK! pure miracle for this one subject i got A- la kan utk CP. tipu gile. but then again, pure miracle. thanks to Allah, seriously millions of thanx to Allah. its like a gift of expensive shoes wrapped in a super cool wrapping when u only wished for a selipar jepun and more so, its not even ur birthday! hehe (percubaan utk bermetafora :p) -okey plis dont assume that the other subjects were excellent too. only this one(for me A- is excellent okay.) haha the rest,, quite okay la.atas pagar gitu. i just deserve those grades (yg atas pagar tuh) sape suh tak belajo rajin2 kan.. haha. tp seriousshit la CP ni camne tah leh dpt A-, senang cite, this is the ONLY subject yg i seriously had no idea hows the flow, wats it all about etc2. i even left 1 question unanswered! jawapan2 lain lg jangan harap a kan. but then again n again, PURE luck. huhu thank u Allah. again. hehe thanks to Pak Abu oso. huhu i pray that u wont fell sick again. huhuhu.


SO, maybe its true when ppl say that sometimes come the unexpected person to help u when things go wrong. so, gotta be nice to EVERYONE u meet, ppl :) . u never know when he/she s gonna make ur day :) it's God's plan.

eih, its not like i wasnt being nice to Pak Abu ni. (btw he's my lecturer teaching CP subject ni. CP = civil procedure) its jst that..uhm... haha tayah la cite. tutup buku. he's great! hehe

Oh, Get well soon to cuzzie Safiyah, hope ur appendix operation wont hurt too long :) kalo sakit tu, take it as kifarat dosa2 silam. (hei budak2 kecik manade dosa sgt kan.. ces)

Luqman

Salaam

friday, 20th april 07
.:Pagi:.

• sent kakyong kat GH
• pegi Pasar Keramat beli ayam, lada, kiub ayam Knorr, carrot, and some kueh mueh for breakfast. nenek pesan cucur badak n karipap, the other kueh pilihan sendiri. (the spelling shud be K.U.I.H kan?) heh ntah la.
• keluar intended to basuh kete n to ampang point with nadia (nak bli cd game.haha game yahoo plak tuh. sungguh hampeh)
• note to self: best pegi pasa keramat! (despite the bau...) haha i luv watching ppl kat pasa tuh - all are malays and they are all sgt la frenly n warm-yela..nak suh kite beli barang die. hehe. kuih pun kemas2 je sume satu size dan disusun elok + kemas!
  

.:Tengahari:.

• tido

.:Petang:.

• pick up luqman at his nursery- only two rows away from my house. kakyong on call today. so mentally prepared to babysit him n wrestle with him at night
• makan nugget, ayam dgn imang n luqman. luqman tak makan sgt.. chew for 1 minute or 2 then kuarkan dari mulut. that explains why he so kurus ady.
• wrestle dgn luqman, as expected. me+luqman guling2 atas katil, buat2 jatuh kat luqman's 'zon selese'.
  
• baju luqman dah sgt comot, jadi mandikan la.
• Luqman before taking his bath. (ignore imang's finger yg tgh controlling the mouse.)
  

.:Malam:.

• lepas dinner, baju luqman kotor semula. mama mandikan luqman. me didnt want, nanti habis basah satu badan.
• drove mama to the bank, sambil bwk luqman jalan2. imang skali ikot.
• main2 ngan luqman (die masih tanak tido)
• makan lagi, luqman comot skali lagi. tuka baju je la. imang the new makcik kesayangan yg tuka kan. hehe
• imang bounced n lullabied luqman to sleep on his bouncer
  
• luqman had FINALLY asleep, i moved him to his 'zon selese'
• now, am writing this post.

.:. today he's been a quite good boy, tak merengek sgt, thanx to his Nina n acik imang die. hehe. he stil didnt realize walid nye gone to Holland already. but i can see that he feels something's missing but dunno wat. yet.

.:.this sunday KY on call lagik. planned to bring luqman to PD sbb mama ade conference (ke apentah) kat sane, plan cancelled due to papa's extra worries+ own excuses. hmm baru ingat nak bwk luqman mandi pool :(

i just luv this quote

"people can lie with their words, but not with their eyes"

hehe..bes2 :)

Life path Number

Salaam

this is just a quick post. found this from nehla's blog. hehe thought its quite fun, wanna share with all ;))

Alak's Life Path:

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life. You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights. A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme. You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends. Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

How Does Alak Live Her Life?

How You Live Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.

How Do You Live Your Life?

What Should Alak Study?

Your Learning Style: Idealistic and Flexible

You enjoy learning anything that can help others... from making the world more beautiful to saving lives. You Should Study: Architecture Environmental Science Fashion Design Forestry Interior design International Studies Literature Music Nursing Restaurant management Studio Art Veterinary Medicine

What Should You Study?

hehe.u guys shud try also. tp jgn pecaye sgt la kan. hehe tp bes je kalo nak pecaye kan.. haha ^^

Salaam

yesterday

Salaam
yeah yesterday had been a helluva despisedly most sucking day for me. (huhu despite the constant family visit on this blog, i remain being myself-using my own choice of word.baru la seems real sket.hehe) what happened yesterday, 16th April 07 (marked as my doom day.huhu exageration)

1- sudden unanticipated interview
i was cozily lepaking at nadia's around 11am, almost starting to do her kawen stuff- kipas utk bg kat tetamu-when my mom called me asking me to prepare for an interview for my chambering position (which i thought has been secured for me) with the boss whos conveniently is my papa's fren. the interview was scheduled to be at 12. like, 1 hour from now? i was like, wat?? gile ke? mane prepare? heii mane boleh?! seriously takleh lupe la mase tuh. mmg horror, like having a nightmare, even. hello, to evryone's knowledge, i am a queen of nervouswreck okay. in addition to the fact that im not prepared-mentally, emotionally, legal-knowledge-ly, urgh this is insane. i'd die. nadia asked 'resume camne? dah buat?' huh mmg tak aa kan. yela all this while i thought im using the most secured backdoor to get into that chambering place. so mane la terpikir nak wat resume. huhuh. seriously taking for granted sume2 tuh. uhuh. so nadia pun tepakse la sent me home. i hurriedly menggelabah ly cari all the certificates which i could only found 3 je yg berguna. oh damn where are all those ****ing certs? lantak la..then buat resume pulak. dah la kne buat dlm mase 30mins. then fortunately i found the cd which contains all the resume samples. so i just hv to pick one. edited it, last2 jd 2muke surat je. haha lawak gile rsume 2mukesurat! dha la tak cukup aktiviti. not to mention the societies which i've onvolved in none. haha. then around 12+ cmtu my parents sampai, so theyre gonna send me to the lawfirm. hah lawak tak lawak a kan, its like group interviews. usually 3 interviewers with one candidates. this time, one interviewer(which is my dad;s fren tu) , stil one candidates but with the other 2backups-my parents. huhuu malu sgt! nampak sgt im so not reliable(memang pun) to be alone.haha anak manje ke ape namenye tatau la. lantak la.then the interview went well agaknye. malas nak cerite. huhu of course la ended up i got the place.sbb the pakcik had made a promise with my dad. huhu yg sedihnye he even had to let go another candidates who had sent her resume, the saddest thing is the applicant's cgpa is like 3+++ , beberape kali dpt deans list, huhu (of course im the opposite-typical loser am i not? haha) and the worst thing is, i know that girl! haha. classmate la kan. my batch. hmm but then the pakcik said dont worry, he can channel her to other firms.... huhu did i just steal a place?

2- Hardisk yg kene reformat
i arrived at home. then decided to lepak at nadia's, sambung keje tak siap td. so after finished, she sent me home, bringing together her mom's HD, with the intention to get those season 4 one tree hill. transfer punye transfer, suddenly kompite hang.and suddenly ade wallpaper je. bende2 lain sume tade. alamak. dah la kakyong was typing her power presentation when i interruptered. sempat save ke tak nih..takot sgt! (i knew i'd hate today) huhu the last thing i need now is to watch kakyong mengamuk at me. huhu. its been a while, tho. haha. anyway, tibe2 bole plak la tekan ctrl+ alt+ del tu kot. then switch to kakyong's powerpoint then dapat la saved. tp the computer still cam tak operating. so i restart la. then okay balik. then start again transferring-copy+paste the ine tree hill. this time i intended to do satu-satu. so i copy paste episode 8 tu. while transferrinf suddenly start hang balik. then tulis (not responding) . apehal kan. so i pun cancelled la. then i cabut la the hd. then took it and pasang it to my laptop.eh apsal tak detect lak ni. then psang it to the main pc balik. bile nak bukak folder hd tu, this terrifying (yeah it is for me) sign popped up it said-the drive is not formatted. do u want to format it now? WHAT? sgt tekejut la kan. then kalo format mesti la ilang sume files and all the datas nad's mom ade in that hd. huu i was so so so scared like hell. huhuh then ckp kat nadia, she said not to worry she thinks her mom mesti ade saved all those docs sumwhere else. stil, her face pun dah cuak jugak. huhu we both takot gile time tuh. so nadia left la my home, with the hd. i was so tak keruan, solat magreb..pray reallly333 hard for miracles to happen. huhu . i asked takudin mcmane, then i asked a fren,he said takleh wat ape2 la then kalo dah jd camtuh, then i asked husna, sbb aritu her brother managed to recover missing/crashed picture dlm memory card. phew she gave me some lights jgak. she said her abg said bole recover kot, theres this software which u can donlod it from internet called pc inspector recovery, then can recover la files. then i asked amir-the computer genius (i had to admit cus he is indeed. huhu) he explained whole lot of techno2 terms which a buta i.t like me mmg tak paham langsung. then he after tantalizing me(saying im screwed bla3 which i already told myself that)-as usual, gv some solutions. kire dah lega la sket by then. msg nadia, she said she havent told mum yet, hoping her mum wont be needing the hd for a while. so we just hoped for that, n this petang will start the rescue mission of the HD. huhu . i knew i'd hate today-was my thought that time.

3- there was this some secret-bad news that ive just discovered. it really was depressing enough. just to complete my most screwing day for me. haha. as i said, i knew i'd hate today. hm

now here i am, lying cozily on my uncozy bed(hehe), typing this blog while feeling the satisfaction of having to finished a novel by Dan Brown titled Deception Point. hehe best, sebab the novel ends well. quite a happy ending. altho admittedly the way he twisted the story quite typical, lebey kurang mcm his Da Vinci Code -the good guy who was the most trusted person turn out to be the bad guy and vice versa.
for now i just hope n pray that my plan of rescuing the HD or any other plans i have in mind will go as planned, and i am seriously hoping n praying for miracles to happen. huhu God help me..

lesson for me: be thankful to ur parents.
my opinion is, the HD prob was all due to my ungratefulness towards my parents. as expected, i ranted out on my parents bising2 apsal kawan die tak ckp awal2 pasal interview ni bla3. the least i can do is patutnye simply thanks my parents for having created the opportunity to do the chambering.huhu silly me. n stubborn me. i am stubborn fyi. huhu

anyway, to those who hv read the deception point, ive searched kat yahoo on the species of sea creature which allegedly resemblance the creature in the meteorite fossil. the creature named Bathynomous Giganteus. so here's the pic:


imagine holding a lice that big.hee geli gile kan..berani betul budak pompuan tuh

berat.

last nite i stepped on the weighing scale kat dapur, lepas mkn(yg tersangat kenyang), and whoah! 48! man its a record! bangge2.
just now i looked closer, oh the weighing scale wasnt really accurate. the jarum quite tersasar. btolkan, then stepped on it again. hmm 45. ceh. okey la jugak kot.
im a sore loser today. just got up from the almost endless sleep, got bathed, solat.
tersangat la boring.
nadia called, phew i'm saved! finally theres someone to kill my time. but the plan is petang nanti. until then, im stucked in this boringness--by choice.
later!~

hmm..random graduates issue

since im stil wide awake at this hour..

one evening i was driving my nenek around kl,

nenek: alak, ngko takde lagi ke 'kawan' kat uia tu?
alak: (buat2 tak paham) haa,,kawan byk je nek, knape?
nenek: alah..kawan ape tuh,, gefren? pakwe?
alak: ohh pakwe ek nek? takde la
nenek: eh takkan a takde. ko kene cari cepat2
alak: alah takpe la nek, rilek la, alak mude lagi ape..
nenek: haa mude2 ni la kene cari, kang dah tua esok tade sape nak dah
(damn, she's right!)
nenek: uswah dah nak bertunang dah dengornye bulan 8 ni.
alak: hehe bagus la.. bla3(puji2 zayd, said he's nice..sesuai la ngan family kite bla3 --saje lari topik, tp..)
nenek:ko garang sangat ke kat sekolah tu? sampai tade org nak.
alak: haha. manede garang. dah tade sape nak, nak wat cmane. takkan nak main tangkap muat je..amik je sape2
nenek: takde la jgn main amik sape2 je..ko kene suke jugak
alak: abes dah takde sape pun yg alak berkenan (alah kalo ade pun takkan tibe2 tros dpt je kot.haha)
alak: tape la nek, belum ade jodoh agi kot, bia je la dulu
nenek: bende2 mcm ni ko kene usehe jugak. kalo ko nak, mak ngko pun bole carikan
alak: heh takpe la dulu

haha heck i cudnt imagine me pakai baju pengantin, preparing myself to be a wife. hello im so so not ready-i cant cook okay. tell me its illogic but its true, me-a 22yr old have never even goreng ikan myself. not that im manja, no. im just scared okay. a little splash of the hot oil from the pan and i'll jump. maybe over the fence str8 go to the neghbour's lawn,watever. i think i can only cook if sumone give me an outerspace suit. fully covered and i think i can cook practically anything, but of course, with the recipe book on the other hand.

and another thing is.. kawen = expensive.costly. ppl have to have at least 10k to get married. if not the bride, the groom of course (but stil not enuff!).and thats the least amount okay. i mean, where d hell can i get those amounts? i dont mean we hv to be filthy rich to kawen but of course, takkan nak tekan duit parents that much. its not like we can pay instalments all these kawen stuffs. but some parents they can sponsor their child, kalo dapat yg sponsor sume mmg best la. no, i dont criticize ppl who kawen with their parents money, i mean its their luck lah,bertuah la ade org sponsor kawen. hmm agaknye if i want to kawen jugak and jimat kos, then id better sign up for that tv program called 'cari menantu', a fren of mine adek die entered that program, best gila, got sponsored for bertunang, wedding reception kat putrajaya and even their honeymoon got sponsored as well!! and with some jewelleries stock summore (not that i love jewelleries. only like the gold so that it can be sold at higher price. haha.).but then hv to get myself the calon first ah.

hmm..when we were young (not that im old now, of course), if we got ourselves a bf or pakwe or watever u call it, the adults would give those suspicious look, words spreading among friends, mom wud even called for a little 'taaruf'-who? wat type of guy? who are the parents? where does he live? is he nice? (well mesti lah, its a mother's instinct of protecting her daughter afterall)
6 yrs later,, makcik2 started-'eih alak takkan takde boyfren kot kat uia tuh?' its becoming a taboo pulak kan - not having one. so its quite confusing, i mean can we at least be given the time line -when u have to have a bf , and when not to -obviously not in high skool. so that i can please others, i'd be ready to answer the way they want me to. obviously not like right now. ppl worrying bout me ending up being a spinster-ended up asking me back as if im not worried myself. heck whoever in this world wud love to have that title anyway~

getting another 'si dia' , the idea sounds like fun. but it did sounds LIKE fun. i mean i cudnt bear the thought of waiting the 'si dia' replying my msg, and when he didnt, worrying why, when he replied late like 30mins, i'd be wasting my 30mins thinking why, wats he up to. and the usual ridiculous conflicts among the couple,that when i heard from my frens who had those..urgh maybe im just so not fit into that world anymore. but undoubtedly theres always the FUN..well that goes unsaid rite. ehm but then.. i dont wanna be all mushy here but i think i might wanna copy-paste from peyton's podcast (imang u know wat it is.haha) so this peyton girl said "I used to have a guy to fight for, we didn’t spend like a ton of time together but you know the saying:The candle that burns twice as bright burns half as long,Well that was us, and then he was gone. But before he left, he told me to move on.I guess he didn’t want to burn me with the wait, you know.But it’s like Tom Pxxx said: the waiting is the hardest part. But the heart doesn’t have a kill switch. You know, part of me is afraid that I’ll never find a love like that again. Another part of me is afraid that I will. I guess I wandered about it a lot, would finding someone else would be a betrayal of what we had? Would it make what we had any less real?" hmm enuf said.
urgh i realllyy hope that im not being all crappy right now. i thought i wont be going deep tonite but somehow i did eh? uh this is so embarassing but watdahell, my brain just rambling its way out. and i cudnt care less. haha watever lah.

so,
no im not mad with my nenek -at all, seriously. but im just tired of situation that i myself can do nothing to change it and this topic (of kawen) is getting really really and i mean REALLY boring ady.
be that as it may, im stil happy as ever to help nadia for her wedding preparation. this post doesnt automatically appointed me as an anti-marriage la kot. haha

lalak

salaam
luqman dah pandai panggil nama saya. although he pronouced it as 'lalak'.. tapi best nye! ;))

tapi gambar di atas adalah ketika tahun lepas. hehe recent2 pictures dont hav lah.

sessions court, Muar

Salaam
the night before i went balik kampung kat Muar. there was this family thingy. so today(rabu) we went to the sessions court. my dad invited me to come along just so i can see how the court procedure works, well i did learn all those stuff but admittedly, i dont really see how it goes. yela.. blaja dari buku..my imagination cudnt build up that much la kot.

then there was this valuable thing called experience.
huhu felt so lucky la i followed to the court today. there were like 4 main accused, 2 of them were charged for rape. the first guy was only 19, for God's sake! and the charge read the victim was 14. so i assumed they were consentedly doing the sex thing but then he was charged for rape coz the girl is underage. how unfair kan?! and the saddest thing was, he wasnt represented by any lawyers and he pleaded guilty to all the charges against him. when my dad asked him, he said he lives with his mum je and even his mum doesnt even know he's got caught and being tried and all. he said he's just accepting the takdir. huhu sgt kesian bile tgk muke die. so innocent. (still, innocent2 camtu pun pandai plak buat 'keje' kat ladang kelapa sawit. cis.) the maximum punishment he's gonna get is 20yrs penjara dan berape sebatan tah tak ingat. tp imagine if court gvs him the maximum, pehh die kuar penjara by the time he's almost 40 already. gile la how wasted his youth can be! huhu so the lesson is, sile la jangan buat jahat dan sile la pandai cari lawyer.

haa there was this another person charged for rape too. but the charge reads 'merogol ***** bt **** dengan 13 lagi yang lain yg masih terlepas di kawasan perkuburan cina' GILE ape rogol beramai2?! huuu takut nye la nak handle crminal cases ni. ha this accused person ni muke mmg mude habis..i think his age around 19-20, and his face is so rempit.huhu. he however claimed for trial. so its not my place to decide whether he's guilty or the other way round. yg ni kesian jugak because he was bailed with the dad as the penjamin (already i forgot wats the term..bailor ke? huhu need to study sum more la it seems). this rempit looking guy came with his parents..kesian je tgk mak bapak (ceh tp the mak looks so bergaye sakan..huhu okey la positive thnkg: maybe shes going sumwhere afterwards..hehe).

and i got to meet up with the lawyer in charge too. the one i met nih hes also a uia grads. named idris. so cool la die looks like he knows evrything - well of course la lawyers ARE supposed to know evrything kan.but i like how he maintained the situation..cam rilek2 je kan. and yeah of course i love wat he has that i lack so much - confidence. his convincing face camtuh and his courage too. imagine there are currently only 2 malays handling criminal cases in Muar, this idris guy, and another person who was previously his boss. so mcm agak gempak la kan. he said not many ppl wants to do criminal, tak ramai yg berani.byk yg takot je. that describes me i guess.huhu.and this idris lawyer ni quite young jugak nampaknye.. i think he's around 34 camtuh. mude la tuh kan.muda2 dah terer, bagus btol.

ohh as promised, im gonna put up the pic of atikah's newborn named Zulaikha (not sure if there is Wan Nur depan name die).huhu mase ni Zulaikha baru nak cuba2 membuka mata. dan mate die tersangatla sepett.hihi sgt comelss ;))

finally......

bismillah..

good news is, i dont hafta study anymore. no more late nite last minute study, no more late nite discussions, no more late evening tutorials, no more early 8 morning classes, no more staying up late just to start n finish the 2 months assignment to be submitted tomorrow, no more summons from the kecoh pacik guards, no more no more and the no more goes on.. hehe but then theres always the other side of it; no more late nite hangouts kat tennis court, no more running back n forth from aikol to hs for the wednesday(or tue or mon) 1 pm gath, no more lepaking at husna's until tertido2, no more going to husna's only to dig into her foodss(oh thats so me!), no more stupid jokes sampai perut sakit sbb gelak2 and the no more goes on too..

so afterall its true la when the adults say tht student life is the best! wait until u keje baru tau. huh no need to wait until keje..already im catching up how it feels nanti. im gonna miss all the bittersweets student life..huhuh.how poyo2 jugak i am kan..haha

this is my softboard n the ever so sepah meja of mine,saje la i put this pic cuz i love my softboard! hihi no matter wat ppl says ;p

then there was our graduation dinner,, evrybody was wearing all glam, well we were expected to as the theme for that nite is 'professionally glam'. haha nampak sgt suke bergaye budak2 law batch kitorang nih (of course excluding me okay.haha). and quite bangge jugak sbb dean said our dinner tuh was the best la if compared to last yr ke ape ntah. alah of course he wud say that, next yr he'll be saying the same thing coz evry yr mesti lagi lain n another new ideas kan. hehe. so that nite ade best dressed awards, for students (brothers n sisters) and for the lecturers as well. breen won the best dressed award for sisters. well she definitely deserves it, from the moment she stepped into the ballroom. she was so cantik (of kos she mmg cantik) n her dress was so superb, with colours that reaallly standout under the oren lighting kan. so mmg she deserves it! sgt cantik! ha..here is her pic

haha kubeb pun ade skali plak. well takde plak gamba breen sorang2,, so sori la kubek ek tibe2 tercommercialize ko skali plak.haha lantak aa..dapat gf glamer mcm tu la jadinye..hehe. ppl, look at kubeb's matching tie + breen nye baju+ tudung..hehehe sweet2.


haa.. best dress for brothers n lecturer pun pakai the same colour cmtuh tu yg bole menang kot..hehe that colour mmg sangat standout la mlm tuh..

memang best la lawgrad dinner that nite..cuz everybody was so happyy :)) ..and glamourous too!! ^^






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^with all the glam2 gurls.from left duduk atas: nuramarina, nad, dina, linda, nasyriq. duduk tgh: zatil. duduk bwh: alak, nuzul, husna, norleen.

<< fr. left: alak, kak fizi, husna, kak hana n kak linda









fr. left: husna, alak, kak najat, eza, kak aisyaf, kak mizah, kak chubby, kak rehah (oh she so cantik dat nite ;)), kak syurna, aadela melati (the celebrity of the nite..hehe).

hahah the above picture shows that me so ngade2 nak amik gamba ngan budak laki gak..alah meor je la pon kot~ haha. (saje a letak gambo ni cuz uswah said i look lawo here..hahahaha :8))

then, the three of us... ^_^ (sorang lagi tgh dlm labour room..baru bersalin..huhu congrats to atikah, dapat anak pempuan..comellsss)

okey lah..loads of pictures lagi sbenanye..tapi maleh a nak letak sume..bole je lagi.. later2 lah ye.. hhuuhu.. okey next post i'll put up gamba atikah + her new born.. best2.

im really enjoying my long holiday. ive slept until 130pm today.haha best! then ive jalan2 with my nenek, driving her around to her fave place; chow kit.haha, then drove her to mine; jaya jusco. haha then tomorrow im going balik kampung.. haha with nothing in mind..wahh life's so beautiful aint it?

p.s: my attire that nite is courtesy of zaza n uswah..haha

5 down, 1 more to GO

Salaam
okey so im only one paper away from graduating. wah mcm tak pecaye kan? ngehhehe.
yela..takyah pecaye pun..i did badly in all those 5 papers..so..just pray for the best lah k alak. uhuhh my body is so, so tired at this moment, and yet im stil so stubborn to lay my head to rest. ive not slept after the exam, which is very rare for me, no, very UNlike me! usually i will sleep till asar or magreb! haha but today byk plak pegi ke sane ke mari..last2 up until now still awake.. gile la..

huhuh i am so LAZY to study for the next paper ni.. dah la paper International LAw.. the ever-so-boring-therapy-class for the whole sem..imagine the whole sem ive nvr paid any attention in this clas..okeyla..the maximum attention i can give is like 15minutes..more than that..im either dozed off to sleep, or borak2 dengan husna, or diving on the notes for the next clas..sbb the class afterwards tuh mmg sgt la kene bace before going..otrherwise u'll get a free lecture or ceramah or watever u call it for 15mins jugak.and u'll get annoyed at the lecturer but somehow u kinda thankful to her in the end sbb , sbb die la u've learnt a lot (compared to other students yg section lain). alah..mdm ni mmg baik sgt pun sbenanye cume dlm kelas je poyo2 sket..huhu slambe je..anyway she's so nice indeed luar kelas. no bull punye. ohh anyway where was i? oh..yela ..this subject of international law is so boring..however this subject ni kinda remind me pasal tentera British yg kene detained cuz they've illegally entered the territorial sea of iran.wat about them eh? oh ha..so one of them ade bagi apology kat siaran tv iran, n one of them tersangat la kiut! haha tahpape.oke no point there. but somehow bole la dijadikan motivation utk belajar PIL ni..altho ive already decided not to read on law of the sea..but watever..asalkan ade smangat nak blaja.. (tipu je..sbenanye same je tade semangat pun)

ohh and another thing keep bugging me is the LAwGrad Dinner thingy. mau pakai kasut ape? beg, clutch or wat? alaa..those girlie stuff la.. boring tak? tp mmg sgt preoccupied bout those stuff. alah..tp watpe nak risau its not like im aiming to win the best dressed award ke ape kan..so takyah risau la kot~

ohh the other day i went breakfast with my mama, and it was fun! nanti la cite.. ma, u can always lift up my spirit with ur stories! luv it! *mwahhs* :">