si Garang

saya telah menjadi seorang perempuan yang garang.
oh well, maksud saya lebih garang daripada dulu.

reminds me when i was in U, had a lecturer who (at that time) was not married. (lets call her L, for lecturer) and she was, well needless to say sangat3 garang that it always took a lot of courage showing up at her class (for a usually latecomer on monday morning) let alone the tutorial (which btw is obligatory and if we wanted to tuang the class had to come up with very good reason) . and i remember that for every tutorial, we wud say "eh nak pegi ke tak aa? kite tak bace lagi" which of wat happened if u havent prepared for the tutorial. oh and when i did prepare for the class (this rarely happens. haha) and i answered wrongly when L asked question(s) this would appear in mind "daymn. shudve ponteng tadi. toldja" while face started to heaten.
oh well do u really need to ask? that semester i got the grade which ppl wont be proud of.

the next sem, lotsa other students whos gonna be taking the subject were advised by the student who had /had not passed the subject not to take it with L cuz not only L was very2 fierce, we also cudnt really understand the subject (hence the grade) . come to think of it, its not that hard , the subject. (my personal opinion). so u can understand why other sections (with other lecturers) were full, and only the section with that particular L was not, and some students were so unlucky (we thought so, at first) that they were left without a choice but to study under L.

Good things definitely happen when we least expected them.

that particular semester, according to rumours, they saw L with a ring on her finger. and much to our surprise, that sem, that few students who were studying with L, got good grades, and we heard not much complains from them. (even a scold was not been heard?)

my point here is,
is it really? once a woman (garang or not, but in this context, the garang ones) got hitched (married or engaged or wtv) she will turn to be nicer?? or is it just the hormone? haha (although i dont know how to explain y i said that- the connection of hormone flow and a relationship). or.. its actually by choice? kalau dah garang tuh, garang jugak, kawen/tunang or not. anybody with experience, mind to shed me some lights ? :)

oh well, i know myself (i think) . and the reason im turning to be garang are all stemmed from the st*upi*d LHD*N who thought by imposing the online adjudication would speed things and make things easier. er.. yea,, if u mean by speed is the speed of snail.

2hours 15mins

i find this funny;
true love is like ghosts
which everybody talks about and few have seen.

and;

the power in a relationship lies to the one who cares less.
how true eh?

but,

power is not happiness. happiness is perhaps acquired through caring more of the other

ok saje je...

how boring is today. (and the days before...)
thank God its friday :)
yeay another 2hours & 16 minutes :D
this post is a waste. i got it -,-

oh just a side note:
i hate the discussions @ la*w*yersta*lk i ve been receiving in mailbox since yesterday. about muslim women to be flogged coz kantoi drinking.
i was strucked y the so called sis in i*sl*a*m came to question the prohibition of liquor. really? dont u not know about it already or as af said, ure trying to legalize watever beliefs u proclaim to hold on to. i remember wise persons once told, "ppl like this, makin dilayan makin dia suke."
hmmm...tapi mcm ada sakit di hati .

lets hear 'em :)

salam

been attending the series of talk held by the Young Muslims Project. Most talks i attended were given by Imaam Suhaib Webb. (like the coolest imam ever met.wow.)
(u might as well google him now. sangat bagus orangnya! oh and bes!)

and the talks were all.. AWESOME! no exaggeration here needed.

i personally think all of u readers should try go & listen to the talks too :)

well as for now, there'll only be 3 talks left, one would be at MMU tonite entitled Revenge of the Fallen: Facing the Deceptions (yes do i need to remind that i havent watched transformers2 yet? so pls no spoilers. haha) and at the same time Brother Hamzah (i think, and cant remember his last name) will also be conducting a talk entitled "What it means to be a Muslim Today" held at KGPA (Kelab Golf Perkhidmatan Awam, Bukit Kiara) and the other (the last) one will be at UIA (haha back to skewl y'all!) entitled Synchronized Quran & Sunnah by Imam/Bro Suhaib Webb.

oh for better clarity on the events, u may as well view this pamphlet :) (as usual, click pic to enlarge, and click at it again to zoom)

dosage

nope, nobody likes a moper (is there sucha word?)

so after an essential amount of happiness dosage i got from our usrah trip yesterday, im hoping to terminate the moping session the downer in me just posted in the previous post.
so, kindly slash the below/previous post from ur reading. ok.

hah. will upload the pics once i got hold of them. (there again the cliche promises. haha)

about the trip? seriously i dunno where to begin. the place is sgt cantek like u wudnt believe that ure actually in an oil palm plantation ! (eh itu ke maksud ladang kelapa sawit? haha)

nanti la bila dah letak gambo leh explain.
kerja3

yeayyy

sungguh anti klimaks, tu. tajuk tu, dengan isi post ini.

pada pemerhatian saya, semua orang mengalami masa masa down. tapi baru2 ini saya memerhati diri saya dan mendapati saya mengalami sindrom down (no,not the other meaning) agak kerap malahan hari2.

saya percaya bahawa sindrom down ini tidak boleh dilayan. makin dilayan, makin merapu dan menjadikan saya seorang yang pemarah, emosional,dan tidak mempunyai daya pemikiran yang stabil.

seseorang yg diamanahkan memikul tanggungjawab menggalas amanah orang lain malahan pula kini mempunyai daya pemikiran yg tidak stabil? wah adakah ini masanya saya menggunakan perkataan "sungguh ironi sekali"?

tak perlu lah saya mengutarakan sebab musabab kenapa sindrom down ini melanda. kerana saya juga kurang arif apakah sebab2nya in particular. ataupun mungkin saya amat arif apakah sebab2 tersebut tetapi tidak dapat menukilkannya di sini kerana sebab nya banyak dan ada yang terlalu rambang, ada pula yang saya paling tahu mengapa. tetapi tidak guna lagi sekiranya tahu sebabnya tetapi tidak jumpa pula jalan penyelesaiannya. wah saya kira penulisan hari ini sungguh berbelit dan membuatkan para pembaca (sekiranya ada yg terjebak) berasa menyampah dan sungguh merapu.

mungkin itu tujuan saya.

kadang2 saya rasa mahu tutup blog sbb saya semakin hari semakin menjadi orang yg tidak interesting, bak kata mat saleh. lalu bakal mengheret para pembaca mengalami sindrom down seperti saya dan itu tidak bagus. dan lebih tidak bagus, para pembaca bakal mengetahui state of mind saya (yang cetek ini, i could say).

state of mind. saya meneliti, blog adalah cermin kepada kehidupan dan sekaligus state of mind seseorang. seperti saya, well cukuplah berckp tentang saya dan apa2 yg buruk tentang saya kerana semua sudah arif kerana saya sendiri yg suka ulang2. haha.

tetapi pada kadang-kadang yang lain, saya mahu pula transform (ye, saya tak tgk lg transformers dan sila jgn bagi spoiler sbb saya mmg tak suka) blog bosan saya ini kepada scrapbook. seperti meletakkan gambar2 yang fun2 dan cantik2 sahaja. kool bukan? saya malahan am working on the idea of it. haha. tetapi bagaimana pula dengan gambar2 atau peristiwa yg buruk2 yg telah / bakal berlaku kepada saya? oh saya harap tidak byk peristiwa buruk yg bakal berlaku. tetapi siapa yang tahu.

tetapi saya kadang2 terfikir, apa lah salahnya kalau saya sekadar meng update blog ini dengan apa jenis jua peristiwa yang berlaku. buruk, baik. ianya bagi saya afterall is the reflection of one's life. sekiranya saya ingat2 kembali, salah satu tujuan saya berblog / memblog adalah supaya satu hari nanti bila saya sudah tua (diam tak diam sudah dekat 3 tahun saya memblog. tak cukup tua lagi kah?) saya boleh baca kembali dan laugh it off whatever i have wrote here. mungkin salah satu cara menyedarkan diri saya bahawa kita masih ada hari esok untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan (wah sounds sungguh beriltizam bukan? hehe) . tetapi bagaimana dengan para pembaca sekiranya ada? adakah mereka akan terbosan sekali dengan blog ini? dengan posting2 saya yg tidak memberi faedah kpd mereka? mungkin ini lah masanya saya menggunakan frasa "the hell with them" . afterall, ini adalah blog saya. oh kenapa pula saya sounds sungguh emo? kini baru saya dapat figure that menulis di dalam bahasa melayu sangat asyik dan membuatkan saya susah nak berhenti. hehehe.

baiklah, nampaknya sudah panjang saya merapu tak tentu hala dan sudah seperti bermonolog pula, bertanya dan menjawab pertanyaan sendiri. oh fikiran saya mmg tak tetap dan berubah2 like that. tapi mcm ada perasaan seronok berkata2 kosong seperti ini. oleh itu, untuk meraikan tajuk di atas, saya ingin mengumumkan saya cuti esok, so YEAYYYYSSS!!! :)))

dan hari seterusnya pula, kerja33 sampai lebam. ah pedulikan hari itu, itu adalah cerita di kemudian hari. buat sementara ini, rasakan kemanisan esok :)