lagi satu siappppp

salam

blogger no more. now i'm a notepadder. hahaha
that been said, below oso came from my notepad. the actual written date is ... 1.04.2008.

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lately ive been wondering to myself. well actually its doubting myself lah to be exact. yea-yea,,the common doubtingself question: do i really wanna do this? i mean, being a lawyer. do i really wanna be one?

i appeared once depan pkp, so whc means lepaking in front the room while waiting my turn = gotta socialize with other lawyers.i realized tht i dont really feel comfortable berborak ngan lawyers for the main reasons:-
1) segan - cuz theyre all hv the vast experience - when i actually in serious lacking there
2) speakong - alaaaa malas laa nak ckp2 english. thats the most berat lidah language for me to speak. (yes, writing in it doesnt acquire opening this mouth. and yep, my mind seems like poyo gile overflowing with engggglish that i blog in eng.) so thing is, malas seyh nak ckp english. apsal tau, sbb nanti my mind pk lain. then my tongue sabotaged me, mule la i stumbled kan nak kuarkan ayat. ciss... (yela, alhamdulillah la kan ade lidah. kalo takde lidah lg la kang jd cam yuyu dalam cite firaun dulu-sape tgk hands up. ohh imang sorang . haha)

tu la, i seriously dah ckp dah kat mama: ma, nak gi holland lah duduk ngan ky nak amik klas ckp english. hahaha. yelah it sounds easier lah kan since org holland pun kalo dlm kelas english die tu sure tak reti sgt ckp gak kan, so tade la i malu sgt. huahuahua.

tu la.. thats why la here i am hesitating lah kan. yela lawyer happpe nak ckp english sangkut2.!! :p

ohh lagi satu mcm bes je kan jd lawyer, like ppl look up to u. but thats only gonna happen if ure a really good one! when going there is already full with thorn and kaca2 and batu2 penghalang (ceh attempting to metaphore summore). and plus i'm a weak-hearted person. sket2 takut. sket2 cuak. not to mention my clumsiness is getting wayyy ahead of me.
take this:
ade ke aku bleh tertinggal my original & copy of affidavit penyampaian long call i kat atas kete, only to discover that when i drove past the stesen lrt dato' keramat. and terpakse u-turn sbb ingat tertinggal kat kedai, when reaching the kedai nampak kertas bersepah atas jalan rupenye tu la die the affdvt penyampaian n the copy! gile a dh kene lenyek ngan kete siap! hahaha. gile loser. so mase filing tuh pun siap ade kesan2 tayar dah lenyek. selekeh takkkk.. haha yeap2, gimme the capital L please.

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p/s: iman. i LOVE using dark colour. hahaha esp in post yg exposing my weakness and loserness. if exist la such word. hahahaha u may adopt the same attitude if u want to ;p