note to self

Dear self,

2011 is tomorrow. 2010 has indeed been a great year for you, in case you forgot. you have been to Australia on a whim, threw your career that you despised (then) to become a babysitter to a wonderful boy (that you are missing quite much n thank god for the videos of him that u sempat amik haha is that even allowed kak aliya? ;p)and being a part of a good little family in Frankston. You met a few friends that you certainly humbled by their good values, appreciate your relatives and amazed at Allah's wonderful creations on the other side of the world. I believed you went for a soul searching, and i wonder if you have found what you have been looking for. Or maybe if you still havent find it, go for another soul searching journey? Tettt.

Anyways, you've entered a new chapter or rather, the next chapter of your life; you were proposed, got engaged within 2 months after you were safely home and are due to get married in July 2011 inshaAllah. You've got urself a wonderful husband to be insyaAllah ;) keep on reminding yourself on that n keep on improving urself and pray to Allah for His blessing and for the journey to get there to be easier. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal..

Youve got a job, alhamdulillah.. now you can save/ spend for your wedding :) although its ..urm... well,, watever but at leastt, you have an income. so alhamdulillah..

you have identified your weaknesses but did you do anything about it? if you know how to, lets get it fixed. if you dont, well, just continue to find the solution and be positive.

you have reached to that time of life where u start asking the FAQ: what do i wanna do for the rest of my life? what am i good at? do i even have a talent to brush up?

truthfully speaking, this is scary. partly because it'd be great if u figured those out when ure like 18 and not 26 (cey tanak ngaku. baru bday kot aritu!), and partly bcuz well, how are u gonna figure that out? and the most scariest is, so whats next?

oh well, its not actually touring around the world, walking runways (apehal ingat kau model ke?), went to the moon - those totally awesome kind of yr, but heck, your life has been mundane all this while and a little twitch here and there just made your life a little bit awesome (by your own standard of course ;p).

so what comes next?

marriage? new career (i WISH!!) ? new place to start over? (I WISH!!)

Whatever that may happen, its a new year, honey (bajet darling). promise me that come what may, always take the time to feel happy and fortunate. dont waste days with "what could have beens" and "what should have beens" because those things dont matter. Go figure out on what does matter and do something about it :)

Happy new year to you. As usual, dont announce your new yr's resolution, its embarassing cuz its the same as last year's :p

Sincerely,

Aalaa'

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ok ok i did stole some lines from OTH. oh well... YEAYYYY oth's back in our tv series collection!

happy new yr ppl. another year wiser i hope.

erm... yes, i also think that this post is quite personal dan agak memalukan? haha.