Friday, October 31, 2008

maybe im not..

i stared hard at the pc screen looking at the amount of my salary for this month.
i was like.. whaaattt *curse*curse*curse*curse summore* (i know its not healthy n morale okey)
so i thought, im done here practicing. (when i jussst got my PC yesterday and i jusssst attested one document with my new signature yg baru je dipracticed byk kali smalam..hoho i memang jakun like that)
and yesterday there was a brief visit from the bankers, they talked about property bla3 interest rates bla3 economy bla3. i cudnt understand.. well.. letssay 3quarter of the whole meeting. i was like ..syaiiitt..... bapak susah nye mende ni i seriously have to buy some guide for banking & conveyancing for dummies
and i thought, thats it. maybe im not cut out to be a lawyer. im seriously considering pursuing my master - in watever field i cud not careless. yep, im indefinite, no specific goal/destination like that.
as long as i dont hv to work my ass off (not actually work la becoz i just took up some files..and some is not even half of wat the other lawyers are currently on, ho ho) and got paid this... low.
and today was supposed to be a big happy grin day for me.
but i , first thing in the morning i read tame's blog, and then ky's blog..and then all the emotions start rushing in..huhu sedey la diorang nye entry pasal mama. me being gifted with mama's natural talent in mata termasuk habuk, of kos la dah berair2 mata ha..kelang kabut cari tissue. haha. harap2 tade org nampak.. and then i watched ky's pics and the 2 budak kecik yg sgt la rindu nye.. pastu nampak iqbal senyum sgt comel OKEY dan luqman yg mcm biase muke sengal sket die tuh..haha dan sgt sayang nye rasa.. rindu gile ngan ky sekuarge!!
and it hit me; nak gi obersea ah nak jumpe ky ! best je tgk diorang jalan2..bergumbira..
aiyoh..and being a perempuan in PMS mode doesnt help either..
but now i ve pulled myself together.. gaji not as expected sbb aku pun masuk keje lambat.. 6/10 arituh.. of kos la die tolak..ahahah bengong me!
butstill, i seriously need to read some books on this. hmmmmm
on the bright, pretending to be cheerful as if gaji rm5k note;
yeayy~ malam ni someone's dream(at least one of the too many dreams) is coming true~! yeap lets wait for it ;))
yeayy~~ alhamdulillah mama getingg better now siap masakkan sarapan roti canai segera+ kuah kari..thanks mam luv yu! xoxo
n seriously, need to go workout on my bajet sbb bajet lari mcm sprinter! laju abes...
so..maybe im not cut out to be one.. but maybe im not done here yet.. letssee for tomorrowsss....lets hope for a brighter sunshines..
and..lets sing some oasis..
Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out
and its bloody irritating when i already put some enter between the paragraph but stil bile publish post ni sume mcm sambung para je.. wekkkkk benci

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

i'm done

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
You,
you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh



...saje je letak lyric katy perry, baru catchy sket kan..
hahaha

Saturday, October 25, 2008

makan besar

you know i'd been counting the days from last week the moment i read the email spreading the news that our firm was gonna makan besar on the last 23rd.. why cuz i am naturally attracted to the word 'makan hotel' and i wud automatically imagining the buffet servings where we'd be allowed to freely flying from one type of meal to another lauk and the most anticipated wud be the dessert, thats why.

so when i entered the hotel with full excitement of makan hotel, i flinched a bit when i heard the colleagues when searching for the respected venue they said 'ming palace'. it mustve slipped my mind the venue mentioned in the invitation email..

u know i'd like to take myself as a bit of adventurous that i like to try new things, taste new foods, surely life has something more than what im always accustomed to kan..so its quite harmless the way i see it.

but seriously..... chinese cuisine mehhh?

i mean, i LOVE sushi or any japanese punye makanan...the western for their lamb chop or steaks watnots (i mean, who doesnt, rite), arab punye makanan pun best- take the famous Mandi (plus its delicious lamb!) and the dessertlike pudding that tasted 'wangi' (i know ppl oso pelik why something wud rasa wangi).. sume gua bleh layan okey...

but i lost my appetite straight away knowing they booked for the chinese cuisine (i seriously think it cost mahal lah kan per head of kos) ,, but of kos, i somehow managed to filled up my stomach sbb i had been saving my stomach for the lunch ok,, lapar gils. and ciss.. they even served herbal tea for the lunch. i mean i am seriously up for herbal tea or any other healthy teas around but not that particular day.. bertambah2 la my frustation built. huhuuu but of kos, dah haus kan, minum bercawan2 juge aku..huhu.
so when i heard they said ada potong kek session afterwards, i was tak sabar gile cuz i need something yg consumeable-if u know wat i mean..

enough bout my tak puas hatiness.. next is my boss yg super comel/nice for quoting (or may i say wronglyquoted ;) ) the phrase 'amar ma'ruf nahi mungkar' in his speech. he said he found that phrase while reading the newspaper that morning. so he elaborate la that we should ask others to do good deeds and forbid to do bad things.. he oso said we are now a family, lets not talk bout about others and talk good things bout others instead..yg paling comel his metaphora yg mcm gini lebih kurang.. we have 10 fingers and we hv 6 long ones and 4 short ones.. so why only focus on the short ones (shortcomings of one person).. when we hv 6 long (or good things) fingers that outnumbered the short ones..ceh aku plak ha yg dh terbalik2 ckp ha.. well u got wat i mean kan..so comel! hahah

so the makan besar was to commemorate 1) deepavali 2) syawal (not exactly lah sbb aritu dh wat makan2 jamuan raya kat ofis(i know, byk mkn2 kan?! = best!)) 3) birthdays for september and october babies (september was combined with octber ones sbb september was ramadhan-how thoughtful ,i know!) and 4) welcoming the newcomers (besides me, there are like 3/4 other new staffs but from the lvl 3 department)

and before the big lunch ended, there were oso potong2 kek session, and of cos i was the one grinning malu2 kucing blakang uncle yg potong kek tu while evrybody else amik gambo,. there were total of 8 org camtu yg birthdya being celebrated :)

ohhh talkabout makan besar, i am rite now sgt hungryjack okeh.. lately malam2 kalo lapar sure cari otai burger. -its very sinfully delicious burger sabar je lah..that i cant understand kalo ade org tak suke.cant resist to hv it evry nite!! tp at this time of hour dh tutup kot ..

eh, alhamdulillah ade cik kazen bername suhaib yg rajinly called uswah tgh2 malam ni dan willing to belikan uswah makanan dr mcD.,. wahh gua pesan skali la god bless u cuz!! chewah..
oh its quite handful jugak this entry kali ini... nampak sgt suke bebel!

oh i purposely tanak letak gambar2 yg berkenaan.. macam bahaye, no? mcm involving org lain dan firm itu,dan most importantly, lets not jeorpardize my new job okeh. haha

Monday, October 20, 2008

another year nearer..

to death



lastnite imang & uswah threw me a surprise birthday session.


we were at ky's room as usual, when imang suddenly hilang and minutes later uswah excused herself to the toilet. i was staring at the pc and all of sudden the 2 girls brought me cakes complete with a candle lit up on the cake. ceh mcm omputeh nye surprais plak aku mmg tak bese! dengan tak biasenye, i was terharu dan terus blew the candle off. imang pun ckp 'ape nihh amik gamba a dulu..' oo yeke like that one aa.. so we lit the candle again n again sbb tak pnah ade rehearsal begini kan.. i also akhirnye makan2 kek tp rupenye ade serpihan candle termasuk mulut..sabo je le..haha

soo terharu & flatterred.. :~> and the cakes were SOOOO superbly comfortingly eyes-closed melt in the mouth - ly delicious! thank u korang..my eyes just went bit watery then. haha


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i cant be specific but for some reason or another, i like the age of 24. even when i was small i dreamt of getting married by 24. or maybe i just like the number 2 combined with number 4. or..maybe ive been thinking all this while that being 24 means that u oredi got wat u want but not too old oledi.. .. but looking at myself now, 24 oreday stil got not much meh?..



well i guess thats just life, it doesnt always turnout as u wished..


so. i'd like to record my special thanks (thank u guys very muchh!) to those who wished me birthday, by sms or foncall (eh lupe plak takde.hahah) , by their own thoughts or AFTER being reminded by me..(ni mmg hampeh!!) haha


super thanks to those yg dah bagi hadiah or cake or a post in blog for that matter (yep ky, i took that as a gift waatt..although, u re stil welcomed to pass things to abg noh..ahhahaa . oh ye, jgn lupe bday imang pun dah dekat.hehe)


come to think of it, gamba ni mcm agak freaky looking. hahaha

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

mencurah air ke daun keladi

it was quoted that persistent observation of nature compels us to see lots of ironies. the example given was the frog thats usually placed beside a flower . .




so i guess my theory of 'org biase2 kawen ngan org ensem/cantik' can prevail hoh.. hahha



anyway .



or the modern day example, (as being mentioned by a fren) paris hilton who's so damn rich, can look so cheap



u know, from daily experience, i sometimes met people whom i felt jealous gila with; so rich, so beautiful.. or she's young and talented and she works at the big company. or maybe she's settled down, got handsome husband, got a child or two..u know, all that young girls of the same age would want in life..

but with all the lavish things life can offer, somehow, they want more.

if today they bought guess bags, tomorrow they would want coach bags. and the next day.. (ntah ape la lg brand yg lagi mahal dok tahuu). they race among themselves on who owns the latest branded or designer goods. i wonder what makes them feel stil deprived. thing is, i observe that worldly affairs would never be enough. i recalled when i was given rm1000 gedebuk. within few days the money habis begitu saje..

well,, ..big earner tends to be big spender dont they..

actually those doesnt surpprise me lah kan,, wat actually surprised me is ppl whose well,, they dont hv much, but they feel as much. they are contented with their lives. and theyre happy. yes, most importantly is that they re happy..they dont gv a shoot if their colleagues are wearing the latest designer bags, or shoes for that matter. they just gv some nice comments on the new purchase, and thats that.



i dream to be one of those.

speaking of which im totally failing at. haha. its not even nearing pay day yet, already i hv a list of things i wanna buy. hahah.. well they all are my needs. and not just wat i want okehh..haha of course im defending myself.


japgi nak try blk using jln ampang. all this while been using yap kwan seng and then tembus semarak bla3, mcm lama je nak sampai umah.

Monday, October 13, 2008

roads taken

"if u dont know where you're going, any road will take you there"
-Lewis Carroll

sgt suke the above quote. hopefully that im working at the new firm is the right road to take me to the place that i'd love.

wah2 firstly i wud like to congratulate cik (or maybe now puan? hehe) nihlah johari di atas pernikahannye dengan saudara mujahid. semoge perkahwinan kalian diberkati Allah..
and yah was right in her blog, the engagement-marriage epidemic is BACK. hahaha..not that its a bad thing though ;p

its really a bad idea me updating this blog now. sbb i had originally made a post (but not a long one pun) but the post was intended to hv some raya pics...dan dah archived already sebelum sempat ditampal gamba2 rayenye..hehe this is my saying that gamba2 raye + pertunangan uswah lain post aaa..hahah. oh i said bad idea updating now sbb takde idea..hehe

work is all right. but i just wish that i cud get out of the office more occassionally and more casually without being bothered wat the boss wud think that i selalu not in my place. cis cis. but i love this one (not so) senior lawyer nih..shes very cool & nice.. haha lepak je and mcm tak banyak hal..haha. u know i had to go to the developer's office on certain saturday & sunday, but i wudnt mind if she's there too :) last sunday i went for the 1st time kan, just to attend the client's signing the s&p or the loan agreements, so i just observe how this senior does her job.. ok lah kot. but when she explains to teh clients in chinese..aku nganga je la..haha
today our office just had our jamuan hari raye.. saya bwk buah2an..haha dun get me started pasal buah2an tersebut...janji bwk! haha

oh tiba2 terlupa the fact i am living with a tunangan org.. orang kate kalo tunang ni darah manis ek... (padan la ko selalu kene gigit nyamuk uswah! haha) .. so maksudnye lepas ni takleh jd partner in crimes la..lepas ni kene ajak uswah buat perkara2 yg mendatangkan faedah je la kan.. haha.. although,.in woman's diary, 'faedah' has lots other sub- meaning..haha