clean&clear. i wish.

salam

this is brief.

my worries lately:

1) my acne
2) my pimples
3) my blemishes
4) my face
5) my resume
6) to go or to stay
7) assigment case review hamid J yg tak siap2 until forever (ok i hope not)


hm. i'm not exaggerating when i mention worry #1 - #4. its getting worst. seriously. benci. ishh anyone have tips/ any suggestion which product to use/ whom should i consult. and welllow kene clear asap gak la since nak convo 4 the 2nd time nih! hahar apehal kan confident gile.. anyways. my face now is mcm degil gile..gune apa2 pun skarang , only can worsened je. aadoi jgn la mcm gitu wahai cik muke.

please. ur respond to this is highly crucial. haha
ehem. no, not funny.

pursuit of happYness

what makes u happy?
what makes ur heart tilt
what makes u form a simple smile
what makes ur day?
it could be ur monthly salary
it could be ur bumping to ur crush
it could be a simple hello from a long unheard fren
it could be frenly smile from a stranger (read; friendly, not the perv ones ok)
it could be a long conversation with ur considered lifetime friend
it could be a sincere compliments ur mom gives u
it could be the thought of having ur whole family waiting for u at home
it could be ur own satisfaction of having done ur work succesfully unexpectedly
it could be many reasons.
reasons that only known to you.
reasons that will keep u sane. (when ure not even close ;p)

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che`nelle said, (as i heard her like evrydayy--kat hitz la kan) "make sure the people u meet will add to ur happiness."

so impliedly meaning that ppl who DOES NOT add to ur happiness..and yet only increase ur annoyance..abaikan je bole tak ? hahaha ;p bole la ye

*gile tade idea..paiseh list jejaka perfek ku masih belum siap. gagaghaha awat la susah sgt noo*

p/s: eh esok bday mama!! happy 52nd mam!! yeay i'm the first wisher sbb belum kol 12 lg! hahah ;))

- the perishers

there's nothing like you and i
nothing like you and i
so why do i even try

can u lend me ur 5 minutes to ponder

i so hapenned to dig my Jurisprudence note and i found my beloved Prof Haseeb's article. which, i've summarized in my own non-prudence word....

u see, the creation of man has dual purpose,
1- Worship Allah swt; and
2- to do justice with himself by adopting the right path and doing justice with God's creation.

that being said, no matter how far we've come, how succesfull we've been, if we dont get along with ppl around us, we dont do justice with other fellow humanbeings, animals, and even plants, ;we're stil fail tho. as we've initially omit one of the purposes of the creation of man. this reminds me of my previous boss; he used to say that he doesnt like to scold ppl, cuz it works both ways. when u scold/marah orang,the result is, the scolder will feel even more mad-er (is there such word i dunno) and wat more the scoldee (lg skali ntah ade ke tak ayat tu), he/she will feel sedih, sakit ati, and many other negative feelings towards him/herself and oso towards the scolder td, of kos le kan. so..baik jangan kan, nak mara2 org ni.kalo tak puas hati, tegur cara elok la.. (pandai2 la u define 'elok' urself. haha. lain org, lain standard of 'elok', it goes back to ur background, how u were brought up, the environment etc2.)

adopting the right path. yes, its the most boldest act of justice to yourself. without question, the right path here refers to the way Allah prefers, which has already guided by the quran. im sure by now, we've already know what this means.

and the other major purpose, is of course, worshipping Allah. this includes performing 5 times prayers accompanied by all the solat sunat (to gain more more pahala n to cover any defect we made while performing the wajib solat). well this is too wide of a topic and im sure its quite a self explanatory by itself. so, no need to elaborate more lah kot:)
(okey ngaku je la sbenanye dah malas sikit nak tulis. hoho kering idea oso)

i guess all im saying is,,no matter how far our lives brought us, to diff places, diff way of lives, diff cultures, diff emotions.. its always pertinent to always remember our purpose(s) in life.
what do we really want?
what does Allah wants us to do?

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Happy 28th Kak Yong!!



everyone, meet the only big sis i have.
she's always the...

• hardworking rajin consistent perseverant in her studies. (well isnt all doctors? ;p)
• as mentioned, doctor of the house :) (not THE dr.house tuh)
  
• welll obviously the fairest of us all. (not fair like fair & square, but fair as in fair & luvly. got it?) i wonder if it has sumthin to do with her lepak UK mase kecik2 .cis dah la 2-3/4 taun je kan kat sane. (note the jeles tone). eh but she's quite fair n square jugak lah kasi can.
  
• paling baik daughter in our family. more like kebanggaan keluarge :)
• a good and istiqomah naqibah, + anak usrah of makcik Je ( and i'm the istiqomah driver. haha numpang pahale ky sudeyy)
• favorite niece of Auntie Dayat. (being veryy nakal in her toddler years running around gigit'ing budak2 kecik yg len, sape yg tak ingat? hehe)
• Wendy of some supermarket kat sheffield ke mane tah tempat ky ilang tuh. haha
  

and now she's...

• married with hubby Noh and have 2 boys. (bile nak dpt girl aku tatau la kan. haha we re stil quite comfortable with all nephews and not thinking on having niece(s) . as of now.
• at holland teman si encik Noh finishing phD.
• and probably at this hour is celebrating her birthday kat sane. ciss kakyong, berani! hehe dengki3
  

kakyong with her 2 precious boys. si mischievous luqman and si blur iqbal! huehehe iqbal si budak baik! berani jd lebih puteh bile kat negare omputeh! pndai ko eh bile masuk kandang kambing mengembekk.. hehe ;p

ky's loves of her life (i mean, besides gong chan, rain, or any other korean heroes ;p that she kept watching over & over again while shedding some unnecessary tears ;p huahaha)

ky with her ceria adek2 usrah. (or mayb its just u yg ceria, zack ;p its good tho. i've always like ur smile. sgt warm. cehh jgn perasan atau kau belanja aku makan! doctor=kaye ;p)

neways ky, for all the support u've been giving our family, only Allah can pays it back. if not in this world, in the Next. amiin :)) lap yu sis! (kalau ko tak komen post ni tatau la . ceh tak pasal.haha)

p/s: ilya, yea2 im working on my perfect guy list. shudnt be tht hard tho,, ehe

whats there not to like?

i mean, being single.

• u can just go out hanging out with any frens u like, without fearing that it wud offend ur specials

• u can pay ur OWN meal without offending ur table mate(s) - well this goes back to the 'bf pays ur (every)meal' principle

• u dont have to be pretennding u like stuffs just becoz ur other half like them

• u dont have to be pretending to interestingly looking at girls shoes while ur gf is busy choosing size at Vincci/nose, (yes, i really pity them. why bother pretending to look at other shoes? ur presence is actually for helping ur gf to choose which one suits her best. so, just look what ure being showed by ur gf. and if u wanna cut it short, just pick either one, and lil compliments will do ;p donwanna get urself into the shoe trouble? split ways. tell her ure going to hv to buy things at men department)

• needless to say, u save ur phone bills (but err.. not really, cuz when u dont hv this 'special' fren, u tend to hv a very good gf and u tend to cantact her like as frequent as ur free time allows u ;p)

• u dont really feel obliged to remember all those 'important dates' - all= theres always the 2nd, 3rd 4th, (well u number them) month anniversary, his/her dad's/ mom's /sister's/brother's/ birthdays, not to mention the rather mandatory each other's bday ;p

• u wont have to listen to the necessary nagging + encouragement + motivation (necessary it IS cuz u actually need it, but ure just so stubborn to realize that)

• u wont have to pick up the wake up call in the midst of ur sweet dreams (usually the girls will hv to make the call, so for girls, u wont have to wake up at 640am to wake ur B making he believes that u actually bangun subuh earlier than he does when ure actually having ur peod.haha)

• u wont worry if u left ur henfon at home cuz u wont get the 'why didnt u pick up my call' scoldings. haha

-believe it or not. statistically speaking, men bring handphones evrywhere rather than women. reason being? one of them the above la. yea2, the scolding part one. haha

• u hv the freedom to chooooose ppl. and the freedom to think 'noo i dont think hes the one' or even 'no way. he CANT be the one' haha (like there are many ppl left to chose from rite? haha)

these are some of the blessings i can think of at this moment. not entirely spoken out of my experience, but yes, thru observations, lain org, lain gayanya, and some from wat ive read.

and u know what? i think sometimes loneliness is beautiful and silence is what u need. just so that u can hear urself more (tho more often than not is just a crapp -like now :P)

me? i kinda got this code understandable btwn me n this fren of mine. like when we're eating alone,or doing things/jalan2 ALONE, we'd call ourselves LOSERS. (gv ourselves the big L finger symbol on our forehead summore) haha but then to think bout it.. wats there to lose about? ure only winning ur own quality time to spend for urself (yeahaha it's called 'Look at the bright side principle' and its very positive, no? ;p )

these are my company when i kononnye having my own quality time (with myself , duh)


Mr. Chocolate brownies ape tah name die..sbenanye sgt yummy kalo kat OU nye S.R. ni i went to J.J's je. ingatkan same je...rupenye yg kat OU lg sedap. cis btol.

Mr. Lamb Pie (im sure it has a different name. but its all bout lamb yg ada di dalam pie. yummy! tak mampu bli lambchop die..pie die pun jd la. sedap gak ;) )

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peyton (of OTH, yeah) did mention that "not knowing is way worse than to know."
and somehow i think i've known a tiny piece of the real taste, and thus currently embracing the singlehood and so far.... yeah, whats there not to like. rite?
(i mean, if ure being one for so long tht u cant remember last time hvg thiis kinda feeling and 39% of ur good frens married and the rest 45% already not single -easily said, ure the only walking singleton- wat else wud u do, rite? go out n haf fun indeedd! ;p)

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time heals old wounds huh?
i dont really think time is the only healing factor, sometimes, it s ppl. or just A person. maybe A she. or maybe A he :) its when u find the rrrrrightttt medication, ur healed . cewah2 konon la kan aku.

gak ada topiknya yaaa. gak ada ide ;p

Hello, assalamualaikum

long abandonement is the result of not paying the streamyx/phone bill (whcever yg btul sbb tak sure) AND bcos its always lot easier said than done, (or in our case : easier advertised than done) , the internet service has only been restored like.. now. we've called (or imang called, to be exact, or tame, or kudin, or,, yeah, evrybody except me, haha) the TMnet; the notorious internet provider like almost evryday.. and until now pun the newly created account tak bole pakai lg. wth. kan?? and sekarang pun gune acc mama yg supposedly cancelled oredi but due to i donno why, bole plak gune, so as long as bole gune lagi, blasah aja.. asalkan bole download cite. haha gile lame tade stok sangap kots~. huhu

wait. caution: long abandonement = long post . haha :D


ohh.. evrybody must hate me for posting this, but i feel like blog it and i KNOW its outdated and all.. but yeah. lets do this.


i've just finished watching Enchanted. i KNOW its gile lapuk oredi.. but ive been wanting to watch it since the first time i saw the ads.
u know when u anticipate something or expecting sumthing very much and when u got it u just 'o..ok' ?
yeah, thats what i felt while watching the movie. i was so full with anticipation and alll.. and then the 'o..ok' part just took over me. i'm SO sorry to all the fans of this movie, but i dont see why i should fell in luv with it. seriously. u wanna know why? (ok if u like this movie, please dont hurt ur feelings. do navigate.)
1- i think amy adams not pretty enuff to merealistickan the beautiful + graceful cartoon character Giselle
2- i dont think she had succesfully Bringgg the part
3- too many singing. and i just dont like it hahahahaha too...unrealistic (well yes, its a fantasy movie. this is totally my bad)
4- i dont like the idea of giselle suddenly fall in love with dempsey . just becos she accidentally touched his chest. urgh come on. (of kos his eyes are so *shing*shing* but,,, doesnt she already has her prince!)
5- too.....bluwergh.. yeah thats my one word to sum it all up. haha

okey i've also came up with reasons to love this movie:-
1- i LOVE Morgan the daughter. she's so cool ! as a 6yr old.. and her voice pun cool gile. jarang ade budak tak gedik mcm tuh :)) suke sgt
2- kasi can la patrick dempsey was cute ;p

no offense to the fans okay. mayb its just me. yes, it s JUST me. my bad

then i watched this 27 dresses. hahaha i simply prefer this one over the above :) funny and .. well, realistic lah sket compared ngan,,, hm.

both movies makes me feel like starting my own boutique. hahaha mcm bes je kan ade kedai baju sendiri?!! haha anytime je gi memane dah ade baju dah. tayah pening2 :))

currently SO sangat222 rindu ngan iqbal & luqman! huhuhuhu! aritu ade chat ngan ky, patu ade luqman! and seeing his smiley face looking at us thru the webcam sgt2 menggembirekan hati! hehe. need to chat & webcam more2 ngan ky so that diorang tak lupe kitorang!! wajib!

iqbal after i punk'ed his hair! of kos la lepas mandi baru bleh cacak2 rambut tuh

















iqbal & me & luqman mase dulu ( me less acne)

maybe ive to start saving some money bile dh byk pegi holland! huhu its always nice to berangan. isnt it?

lagi satu siappppp

salam

blogger no more. now i'm a notepadder. hahaha
that been said, below oso came from my notepad. the actual written date is ... 1.04.2008.

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lately ive been wondering to myself. well actually its doubting myself lah to be exact. yea-yea,,the common doubtingself question: do i really wanna do this? i mean, being a lawyer. do i really wanna be one?

i appeared once depan pkp, so whc means lepaking in front the room while waiting my turn = gotta socialize with other lawyers.i realized tht i dont really feel comfortable berborak ngan lawyers for the main reasons:-
1) segan - cuz theyre all hv the vast experience - when i actually in serious lacking there
2) speakong - alaaaa malas laa nak ckp2 english. thats the most berat lidah language for me to speak. (yes, writing in it doesnt acquire opening this mouth. and yep, my mind seems like poyo gile overflowing with engggglish that i blog in eng.) so thing is, malas seyh nak ckp english. apsal tau, sbb nanti my mind pk lain. then my tongue sabotaged me, mule la i stumbled kan nak kuarkan ayat. ciss... (yela, alhamdulillah la kan ade lidah. kalo takde lidah lg la kang jd cam yuyu dalam cite firaun dulu-sape tgk hands up. ohh imang sorang . haha)

tu la, i seriously dah ckp dah kat mama: ma, nak gi holland lah duduk ngan ky nak amik klas ckp english. hahaha. yelah it sounds easier lah kan since org holland pun kalo dlm kelas english die tu sure tak reti sgt ckp gak kan, so tade la i malu sgt. huahuahua.

tu la.. thats why la here i am hesitating lah kan. yela lawyer happpe nak ckp english sangkut2.!! :p

ohh lagi satu mcm bes je kan jd lawyer, like ppl look up to u. but thats only gonna happen if ure a really good one! when going there is already full with thorn and kaca2 and batu2 penghalang (ceh attempting to metaphore summore). and plus i'm a weak-hearted person. sket2 takut. sket2 cuak. not to mention my clumsiness is getting wayyy ahead of me.
take this:
ade ke aku bleh tertinggal my original & copy of affidavit penyampaian long call i kat atas kete, only to discover that when i drove past the stesen lrt dato' keramat. and terpakse u-turn sbb ingat tertinggal kat kedai, when reaching the kedai nampak kertas bersepah atas jalan rupenye tu la die the affdvt penyampaian n the copy! gile a dh kene lenyek ngan kete siap! hahaha. gile loser. so mase filing tuh pun siap ade kesan2 tayar dah lenyek. selekeh takkkk.. haha yeap2, gimme the capital L please.

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p/s: iman. i LOVE using dark colour. hahaha esp in post yg exposing my weakness and loserness. if exist la such word. hahahaha u may adopt the same attitude if u want to ;p

yesterdayss

salam

so. its been 3 days kot dah takde internet kat umah. gile rasa lost. and boring. and nothing to look fwd to when balik rumah after ofis. and takde mood nak siapkan keje2 yg bwk balik umah eventho keje2 tersebut hv nothing AT ALL to do with internet. haha. talk about iT generation lah kunun. (padehal bukan reti iT sgt pung)

anyways, to maintain my lvl of boringness, i typed la some things in the notepad. haha (oso dunno la why didnt i use Word instead of notepad.)

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ok,the moment of truth.

what. do . i. really. wanna. be./ become?

point 1- i wanna be a person who can someday proudly declares that "i've come a long way". a person who can someday admit that she USED TO BE a girl who wass so scared. of life, of love, of work, err yeah, mostly of LIFE (which sums evrything). a person who can put an ensuring smile while opens her mouth when she say 'yeah, it was hard at first. but i kept holding on, then things started to workout its way'
conclusion 1 - to sum it all up, i wanna be a person who managed to be succesfull. i wanna be a person whom i myself can feel satisfied with. and in turn, she can motivate another ppl (err..hmm).

well, i do believe the theory that u somehow touched someone else's life. but for me, i dont think i ever been THAT to anyone's life. so,,it wud most probbly be like a 3-pointer shoot-to put as a metaphor- thing for me to strike that goal. so i just hope that i can be a person i myself can be satisfied with. and most importantly, a person whom my parents can be proud of, that i can be the reason for that smile on their faces :) (waa that's a long shot! as it wud be H.A.R.D. considering my sister oredi a doctor and 2 of my brothers been qurratu a'yun of pama oredi being a hafiz n bagus2 belaka, and other siblings as well with their skills and knowledge. cis. ;">)
but thats why its called a goal, u know. u have to work as hardd so that when u actually score, there's this end-result called 'celebration' :) and most of all.. the satisfaction. yes, i do wanna taste the sweetness of it..and i tell u girl, its not gonna be easy.

hm hm


"Good timber does not grow with ease.. the stronger the wind, the stronger the trees"

mind u alak, its not gonna be easy. its gonna be a long long way and it sure is a bumpy ride :(