i like her version better

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salam

glad this week ended. what a week! i guess i need this busy-ness a lot la. just enough to keep me distracted from being such a freaking hopeless loner.

i used to say that ive received a hell lot of bad news recently kan, and what do u know, Allah always has a better plan for me. wooh i got chills already.

last full weekend me and alak went to this amazing (mark my word) mental rehab. or what other people call - ESQ. alak had introduced it well enough in her post. so somehow i guess my part is done la. haha. but to get clearer, just click here. so im glad im ESQ-ed. and thankful my mom and dad sent me there. sedar diri sket la aku ni.

during the days that i felt like amnesiakan diri and all, esq happened. alhamdulillah la.

so during the rehab, we were exposed to the principle of God spot, how the big bang theory wasnt actually from stephen hawking but from the quran (forgot the ayat, later i check back) which is the most resourceful and greatest encyclopedia but we muslims (especially me) just in the state of defiance to decrypt it. all this while i read the translation of the quran without feeling the chills, u know. when read the part about earth, skies, universe, i never felt chills. u know ala cam berderau2 darah tu. wat do u call? goosebumps? something like that la. but i think chills better. hehe. so never did it slip my mind to literally imagine that this universe is gigantically vast and its still freaking expanding. meaning it keeps getting gigantically bigger every second!literally imagine that this universe is gigantically vast and its still freaking expanding. meaning it keeps getting gigantically bigger every second!

thanks to the cool videography and perfect soundtracks and sound effects, i can actually get to feel wholeheartedly that, okay if our universe is gile besar alrready, then what about its Creator kan. then thats when i discover that the Maha word isnt for nothing. Maha is bigger than universe itself. wah. subhanallah. then it came to a point where i can zoom in back from the expanding milky way, to our solar system, to our earth, to asia, to malaysia, to kl, then to ourselves. in relative to the size of our body, who the heck are we to just walk arrogantly, ignorantly on Earth kan (which is gazillion times smalller than the sun already - which is gazillion times smaller than all other stars - which is gazillion times smaller than milky way - which is.. well u get the picture right how small small small we are.)

then ummm. those 2 days made me realize that all this while my life has only been devoted to the worldly luxuries. and sooo little that i took into accounts about the akhiratly luxuries. padahal, this world is really2 temporary and when i think back, i looked really stupid to only struggle for my worldly dreams and not really struggling for akhirat. istighfar dulu ya.

then i was touched like gile2 by the real story behind hari raya korban. yeah everybody knows that just when nabi ibrahim was about to slaughter nabi ismail's throat, his son turned into a kibas..
but not everybody managed to menghayati that it takes bigger than the world for a dad who had just given an opportunity to meet back his perfect and soleh son after how many years of separation - to just sembelih anak sendiri? see this is faith. it worths more than a world. i totally respect and salute the faith and love that nabi ibrahim had for Allah. and for a believer, theres always good news kan. thats when Allah turned his son into a kibas. and nabi ibrahim didnt even slaughter his son pun.. talk about the Maha Penyayang He is..

then, about Asmaul Husna and how it is the key to happiness to one's life, kalau betul2 menghayati la kan. even the world class CEO practises Asmaul Husna.

the thing i like about this training is, well, the trainer itself. i guess if they put the wrong unexpressive trainer, this thing would bore the hell out of me. haha. dahla lawak gile trainer tu. dan okla pak firdaus tu agak kacak jugak. (and alak said it well in her post too - and yeah, jakarta-ians kinda rock la now. ahah)

oklah, banyak dah cite. this is only 0.0000000001% of the whole training. i truly recommend all fellow readers to give it a shot la. try tengok camne. tame said, kalau ikut tarbiyah betul2 pn dapat rase cm esq gak, yes true enough but for biase2 people like me, i guess this esq is the shortcut la to get the penghayatan quicker. haha. but then again, this esq thing is not everything. i think this is just a basic that every muslim shud have. more like a starter episode for each muslim.

and ive always thought that the song sandaran hati by letto is not for human being. in fact tak layak pun. then i discovered i was right. hehe.

since plain words are boring. so heres the example of aurora that ive been dreaming to witness. esp with the org yang bes. but not sure la now how.

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i told u , i just like my sis' version of explaining the esq thing. so i copy-paste'ed it ;p