hello leg cramps

ok so the morning (more like, all day -_-") sickness is over, and im not that constantly hungry now. but the bloating after eating part is still here, guess it'll never go away sbb perut makin besar kot.

the fatigue part pun i guess will never end ,.. ok u just wait until the baby is born lagi la penat tak tido malam etc - org kata. no wonder perempuan sebenarnye senang nak masuk syurga eh. sbb byk trials yg leceh2 nih haha. anywaysss,, alhamdulillah ala kulli haal.

ok so the 1 week trip to japan was GREAT, but i was penat every minute. now that im getting all the leg cramps, i thank Allah that i dont get those when i was in japan. gila kau nak leg cramp hari2 mmg duk rumah je la jawapnye. sgt membazir..so alhamdulillah on that too. pictures... semua masih di dalam memory card camera boleh tak. just couldnt find the time to upload in the pc.

mama still in the hosp. papa said doc said boleh keluar on friday. think its quite a while for mama to be there. hopefully by friday she's feeling all better. amiin.

thinking of my hopes for the child, made me think that every parents have high hopes and expectations for their child. but how many turns out to be as their parents' wish? a good smash on me. haha. mayb thats y ppl says being a mother could change you. n i hope it'll change me the good way. amiin.

ok gotta go work fill the empty pocket with some money. money runs dry now that we're back from japan. everything there is x 4 = so kopak :)

p/s: am also blinded by the books uswah lent to me which one to read first (while automatically hands reached down on rob's n browse thru haha. thats said, cant wait for 24th! oh wait, its tomorrow!! dang... *hearts beating*)

peh 7 bulan! okla almost

Hello blog. Lama tak jumpe.

Readers,,, mayb dah tak ada sebab its been 7 (okla almost) friggin monthssss saya tak update apa2!!

u know sometimes when u feel lost or when u drive alone in your car, u were thinking about this n that, suddenly it got u like 'oh i must write about this!' n u start berangan to write, u did feel a little off because u have put writing on hold for far too long and yes u got the feeling that notwriting makes u less urself. maybe thats why writers become writers. (and bloggers become bloggers hehe) my point is, yes i have had those moments selalu jugak for the past 7 (okla almost) months ni, but dunno what has kept me so long to even write a post.

yesterday i suddenly had an epiphany ( eh ke camne usage die?) like ok well since im pregnant now (entering 11weeks today! ) semalam only i got the 'motherly feelings' haha a bit funny tho cuz im not motherly at all. so i was like terharu sekejap pastu my mind started la imagining things we (me n baby insyaAllah) can do together, like baking2 (inspired by kak aliya sbb layth looks so cute lagi pandai bake dari aku!) masak2 while waiting for the baba from work - im gonna familiarize him/her with masak2 apa2, gardening, science-project-ing, deco his room and etc. so thats when i thot to myself. ok kena blog ni. haha

anyways thats the quick update. need to mandi now n off to the office.

hope to write again soon. been busy all this while doing donnowats. haha. k moving around every week is tiring n time consuming, not to mention being pregnant itself is tiring ,haha.

Spring cleaning

Omg the amount of cleaning tht has to be done by friday nite!! x_x"

Inilah akibatnye if ure a procrastinator -_-"

Imang will whack me nicely when she reads this n hopefully she wont feel tht way when she sees the room nanti (dh siap kemas, amiiinn)

Tomorrow is a new day inshallah, hope i'll be better than today biiznillah.

On life recently: changed, rerouting, bleak, hopeless n mundane. Praying for a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel, inshaallah.

P/s: omg annoyying nye apps hape haku gune nih xleh landscape view! Leceh gile type 1 jari...

note to self

Dear self,

2011 is tomorrow. 2010 has indeed been a great year for you, in case you forgot. you have been to Australia on a whim, threw your career that you despised (then) to become a babysitter to a wonderful boy (that you are missing quite much n thank god for the videos of him that u sempat amik haha is that even allowed kak aliya? ;p)and being a part of a good little family in Frankston. You met a few friends that you certainly humbled by their good values, appreciate your relatives and amazed at Allah's wonderful creations on the other side of the world. I believed you went for a soul searching, and i wonder if you have found what you have been looking for. Or maybe if you still havent find it, go for another soul searching journey? Tettt.

Anyways, you've entered a new chapter or rather, the next chapter of your life; you were proposed, got engaged within 2 months after you were safely home and are due to get married in July 2011 inshaAllah. You've got urself a wonderful husband to be insyaAllah ;) keep on reminding yourself on that n keep on improving urself and pray to Allah for His blessing and for the journey to get there to be easier. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal..

Youve got a job, alhamdulillah.. now you can save/ spend for your wedding :) although its ..urm... well,, watever but at leastt, you have an income. so alhamdulillah..

you have identified your weaknesses but did you do anything about it? if you know how to, lets get it fixed. if you dont, well, just continue to find the solution and be positive.

you have reached to that time of life where u start asking the FAQ: what do i wanna do for the rest of my life? what am i good at? do i even have a talent to brush up?

truthfully speaking, this is scary. partly because it'd be great if u figured those out when ure like 18 and not 26 (cey tanak ngaku. baru bday kot aritu!), and partly bcuz well, how are u gonna figure that out? and the most scariest is, so whats next?

oh well, its not actually touring around the world, walking runways (apehal ingat kau model ke?), went to the moon - those totally awesome kind of yr, but heck, your life has been mundane all this while and a little twitch here and there just made your life a little bit awesome (by your own standard of course ;p).

so what comes next?

marriage? new career (i WISH!!) ? new place to start over? (I WISH!!)

Whatever that may happen, its a new year, honey (bajet darling). promise me that come what may, always take the time to feel happy and fortunate. dont waste days with "what could have beens" and "what should have beens" because those things dont matter. Go figure out on what does matter and do something about it :)

Happy new year to you. As usual, dont announce your new yr's resolution, its embarassing cuz its the same as last year's :p

Sincerely,

Aalaa'

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ok ok i did stole some lines from OTH. oh well... YEAYYYY oth's back in our tv series collection!

happy new yr ppl. another year wiser i hope.

erm... yes, i also think that this post is quite personal dan agak memalukan? haha.

Dear readers (if any),

go click this link http://dearblankpleaseblank.com if you wanna have a good laugh.

Sincerely,
writer's block


p/s: awesome gila this site! hahhaha :D

sakit

oh. so now i'm in charge of KIV Files, and 2008 (2007, 2006, 2005, 2004 ...neverending) and below?

yeah

oh..ok.

cuz Mr. S and Encik A thinks u have no work

oh.. i have no work

(can u please just go to hell already? if u can simply petik2 nama diorang and sortof blaming them for thinking i hv no work and thats the reaosn im handling all those cases, then whats ur role huh? postman?! if YOU dont think so, just tell them what are the things im working on?! wth.supervisor my a$$ dah la.i'm done. u can do watever u like)

its the end of the year

can u believe it?

omaigod feels like 100 years havent been writing in blog. like actually write. or type, for that matter.

mashaAllah suddenly its december now huh? time flies so fast we lost track of it, drowned in the daily routines. complaints? i hv lots of them but lets just keep it inside. updates? omg there's just so much to update on. this upcoming trio wedding is really exciting and tiring (for my eyes for browsing on b2b* blogs, and other websites on essentials for wedding or rather non-essential things :p)

spending more time browsing the net as a bride to be (ehem), gives me insight that there's just so much to do (and of course to spend!) for a wedding - whether u want it to be unique - reflects urself/ personality, or if u want it to be memorable like a fairytale style or if u want it to be grand, or sweet and nice - everything is there on the internet. i guess blogger dah kaye now since most of the wedding service providers are using blogger instead of .com. . rupenye ade sgt byk blog b2bs!! tips from the b2bs blogs are also very2 helpful. omg seriously these b2bs are so rajin like ya Allah rajinnye kau lipat2 crane 1000pcs and gantung2! haha but i guess, (some) girls would always go to certain length to get what they want. anyways, on the other side, Islam specifically said that a barakah wedding is the one with least expenses. hmm i mean its quite clear on that. then again its a matter of preference and whther u have the means for it. asalkan tak membebankan ur future spouse and most importantly ur parents sudah.. ke ape?

me? haha i can never pull a grand wedding thats a given. so me n imang (n takudin) are planning to have something thats just.. nice. a wedding that brings comfort to the relatives n friends to hang around and catching up with each other, a wedding that is free of hassle (caterer n pelayan adalah wajib) and of course, a wedding that we the pengantinss will be happy and comfortable in :)

i guess im just another b2b trying to record or keep track of whatever preparation she's going thru. haha. that, or im just being a blogger. hehs.

anyways. only 1 box can be checked now: photographer ! me and imang berdarah2 mata (over) tgk2 blog2 photographer sana sini. some of them put in too much editing in their work, jadi pics nampak superficial - takmo. some other angle lawo gile but sket2 buat gamba style photo lama (kalo sikit2 takpe tapi kalo dh sume? booringg..) so,, takmo gak. and of course, there are always the one yg superb, the technique, the setting, bla3 evyrthings is nice but poket gua tak nice.. soo tak dapek la T_T. and then one fine day imang told me to checkout this newlyweds photograper. initially we memang kalo bleh nak yg mcm daniel zain -ish.. gamba cerah, cahaya cantik. speedlight dihalakan ke arah yg betul, bukan ke subject directly (ceh mcm la aku terer no phptogaphy stuff ) . so i went to this newlyweds blog and.. wahh cantik2! terus terpikat and straight away i sent them email for quotation. surprisngly their price is sgt affordable! alhamdulillah.. terus book straight away huahua dah la theyre so nice, very accomodating :)

shit. im starting to sound like other b2bs out there! oklah then, b4 i become worse, i better sleep now. a long day ahead in a few hours.

its maal hijrah yesterday. another year wiser i hope, inshaAllah. please pray for me :)

**bilekah saya mahu tukar rupe paras blog ini. hm hm

*b2b = bride to be