hehehe

salamm...

yeay!!!!!!!!!!

today, 29.02.08 is my last day chambering!! wohoo

but then here comes the biggest responsibility --> lalala...kerjalah!

gile cepat masa berlalu. 9 bulan tak terase. kalu mengandung dah sampai masa nak bersalin dah kan.
hehe.

sooo many things to be sorted out. inter alia: cause papers, all the borang2 to be signed by the Masters... and etcetera2.

i honestly have no idea to actually blog lah kan. but just for the sake of adding another post. heee so in a way i'm suggesting u to navigate away from this page as of now as there's absolutely nothing useful and/or interesting in the rest of this post. really.

hmm.
my boss said wants to belanja me+budak2 ofis A.I tu nandos. cis..manekah janji buffet crown princess with my frens? haha takpelah..sayakan tidak materialistik orgnya. haha. so,, to anybody whom i've sent the invitation to the crown princess buffet..sile la lupakan je. hahaha sori mori bos gua belum ckup fund lagi . haha bajet rhymes. (mmg pun!)

oklah. sambung lain kali. siyes tade faedah dis blog! Sgt2 la sory kepade sape2 yg terjebak ke sini hari ni . huhu

See I’mma tell you like WU told me
Cash Rules everything around me
Singin’ dollar dollar bill yall (dollar, dollar bill yall)
Singin’ dollar dollar bill yall (dollar, dollar bill yall)
Wyclef Jean, Akon, Weezy - Sweetest Girl

on election

"For in reason, all government without the consent of the governed
is the very definition of slavery."
Jonathan Swift
(1667-1745)

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i was chatting with eichak.. and we were rambling who's married, and whos next, when all of sudden... gile shocked lah kan kira2 baki yg tinggal.. me & eichak JE yg tak kawen lg!!! like wat? wat????!!! we were seriously shocked GILA..! then eichak baru teringat.. we stil have fatimah and azura. and we were like ..pheww~~ but still...
cis..apehal girls in our form 4 class THAT few sampai the Q is sangat la pendek kan. leaving ONLY us and no surprise that i might end up being the last . penutup. hahahaiih

gile shock becoz all this while i never thought that at this age considered lambat already sbb my al-amin frens .. the married ones are lesser than the uns. let alone all my uia frens.. sume sibuk2 chambering lg..so rilek la kan. diam2 rupenye haku dah kene tinggal ngan keretapi budak hira'!!

hahaha but yeah.. laugh it off.. cuz i;m off to bed ;p

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al fatihah untuk my great greandma's sis - wang achah- she died today around 3+pm tadi..
automatically me been granted 1-day leave to drive my parents balik kampung esok. huhu and here i am updating THIS instead of grabbing enuff sleep. haiseh.

okey,,,al fatihah.

i like her version better

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salam

glad this week ended. what a week! i guess i need this busy-ness a lot la. just enough to keep me distracted from being such a freaking hopeless loner.

i used to say that ive received a hell lot of bad news recently kan, and what do u know, Allah always has a better plan for me. wooh i got chills already.

last full weekend me and alak went to this amazing (mark my word) mental rehab. or what other people call - ESQ. alak had introduced it well enough in her post. so somehow i guess my part is done la. haha. but to get clearer, just click here. so im glad im ESQ-ed. and thankful my mom and dad sent me there. sedar diri sket la aku ni.

during the days that i felt like amnesiakan diri and all, esq happened. alhamdulillah la.

so during the rehab, we were exposed to the principle of God spot, how the big bang theory wasnt actually from stephen hawking but from the quran (forgot the ayat, later i check back) which is the most resourceful and greatest encyclopedia but we muslims (especially me) just in the state of defiance to decrypt it. all this while i read the translation of the quran without feeling the chills, u know. when read the part about earth, skies, universe, i never felt chills. u know ala cam berderau2 darah tu. wat do u call? goosebumps? something like that la. but i think chills better. hehe. so never did it slip my mind to literally imagine that this universe is gigantically vast and its still freaking expanding. meaning it keeps getting gigantically bigger every second!literally imagine that this universe is gigantically vast and its still freaking expanding. meaning it keeps getting gigantically bigger every second!

thanks to the cool videography and perfect soundtracks and sound effects, i can actually get to feel wholeheartedly that, okay if our universe is gile besar alrready, then what about its Creator kan. then thats when i discover that the Maha word isnt for nothing. Maha is bigger than universe itself. wah. subhanallah. then it came to a point where i can zoom in back from the expanding milky way, to our solar system, to our earth, to asia, to malaysia, to kl, then to ourselves. in relative to the size of our body, who the heck are we to just walk arrogantly, ignorantly on Earth kan (which is gazillion times smalller than the sun already - which is gazillion times smaller than all other stars - which is gazillion times smaller than milky way - which is.. well u get the picture right how small small small we are.)

then ummm. those 2 days made me realize that all this while my life has only been devoted to the worldly luxuries. and sooo little that i took into accounts about the akhiratly luxuries. padahal, this world is really2 temporary and when i think back, i looked really stupid to only struggle for my worldly dreams and not really struggling for akhirat. istighfar dulu ya.

then i was touched like gile2 by the real story behind hari raya korban. yeah everybody knows that just when nabi ibrahim was about to slaughter nabi ismail's throat, his son turned into a kibas..
but not everybody managed to menghayati that it takes bigger than the world for a dad who had just given an opportunity to meet back his perfect and soleh son after how many years of separation - to just sembelih anak sendiri? see this is faith. it worths more than a world. i totally respect and salute the faith and love that nabi ibrahim had for Allah. and for a believer, theres always good news kan. thats when Allah turned his son into a kibas. and nabi ibrahim didnt even slaughter his son pun.. talk about the Maha Penyayang He is..

then, about Asmaul Husna and how it is the key to happiness to one's life, kalau betul2 menghayati la kan. even the world class CEO practises Asmaul Husna.

the thing i like about this training is, well, the trainer itself. i guess if they put the wrong unexpressive trainer, this thing would bore the hell out of me. haha. dahla lawak gile trainer tu. dan okla pak firdaus tu agak kacak jugak. (and alak said it well in her post too - and yeah, jakarta-ians kinda rock la now. ahah)

oklah, banyak dah cite. this is only 0.0000000001% of the whole training. i truly recommend all fellow readers to give it a shot la. try tengok camne. tame said, kalau ikut tarbiyah betul2 pn dapat rase cm esq gak, yes true enough but for biase2 people like me, i guess this esq is the shortcut la to get the penghayatan quicker. haha. but then again, this esq thing is not everything. i think this is just a basic that every muslim shud have. more like a starter episode for each muslim.

and ive always thought that the song sandaran hati by letto is not for human being. in fact tak layak pun. then i discovered i was right. hehe.

since plain words are boring. so heres the example of aurora that ive been dreaming to witness. esp with the org yang bes. but not sure la now how.

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i told u , i just like my sis' version of explaining the esq thing. so i copy-paste'ed it ;p

Is It You?

by Cassie

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way

The way I like to have my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

someone who wont take for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

hello blog. last time (cant remember exactly when) imang tagged me bout the dreamguy thing. i really2 tade mase to figure and write carefully all the qualities which i can conclude (of course) as mr perfecto lah kan. but somehow i came across this song and i think it is nice. so. yeah, this cud be the answer to the tag thing but of course not entirely lah kan. and oso many222 other qualities to be added but i just kinda like this song and ... thought it kinda fit . yea watever. heh

oh ye! sile la download this song, sesape yg berminat. i assure u, worth downloading. (at least i think so) :)

laut

salam ppl.

how's ur day? good i hope, cuz mine is .. biasa-biasa saja.. :")



u know, there's a hadis qudsi, somehow it sounds like this, tho cant remember the exact words.. but here goes.

"celupkanlah tangan mu di dalam air laut dan angkatkan lah tanganmu itu. air yg masih berada di dalam tanganmu itulah dunia dan laut yg terbentang luas itulah dia akhirat"

LALU,, apakah yang dikejarkan sangat oleh kita manusia ini? please tell me (imang, nada pak firdaus ;) ) selama ini yang kita kejar2kan sangat adalah demi segenggam/setitik air di dalam tangan kita sedangkan selautan luas akhirat itu kita abaikan? (in an indonesian tone, evrybody ;p).

it shudders me to think that the hereafter is like the ocean size wide, like verry verry34 major if compared to the world that we've been living in. only setitik/segenggam air tu? hm. melampaui batasan pemikiran kita kan, how long we'll stay there, like this is the real meaning of forEVERRR. and wat hv i earned to have a happy ending there? like so little that i cudnt even remember. huu takut kan? :S

so, yeah, things we have to start to ponder.. (or at least me.)

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jadi..iya, saya sudah finally been to ESQ . and yep, like evry other ppl who've been to one, only one word to describe: BEST!. ohh okelah..tambahan extra words cuz its me being honest here: SANGAT LAWAK&COMEL&BEST pak/abg Firdaus Djamaris ituh! :P ahaha... (rupenye pasal trainer die la kan. tp seriously module die sume gempak cm s**l ! ) ha ah la imang, maybe after this we can consider jakarta-ian. hahah memilih ya lokasi asal usulnya.. anyway, asalkan org nye sebegitu kan., lawak/spontaneous/ comel/ baik+beriman haha . plus, indonesian mcm bes kan budayanya terus terang aja gitu.. hm. dream on girls.
untung aja firdaus itu sudah ada anak isteri segala..kalu tak,,sure beratur segala macam gadis. iya kan? haha.

okey i shall stop the crap. (*wiping forehead* astaghfirullah..)

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yaa kepada yg nggak ngerti di luar sana tentang apaan aja ESQ itu..silakan google/search kat internet sendiri.. hehe bole tak malas nak explen. hampeh a lu alak!

okla2, briefly. u must've heard about IQ kan? = intellectual quotient, so.. ESQ= Emotional+ Spiritual Quotient. long story short, ppl cant success with just IQ, to be 100% successful, he must also has both strong Emotional & Spiritual quotient.. so this ESQ training i've been to is somehow nak latih our E&SQ la mostly. oret tak mcm tu paham la kot an.

but for person my age, or at least berfikiran mcm saya,atau tahap pemikiran mcm saya, silakan pergi yg mahasiswa punye kerana i think it would double or triple the fun as compared to executive/ org keje punye ;p hehe . (apehal la alak sket2 sume nak fun je. hahah. )

ape2 hal, mmg recommended la. haha

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lawa plekk gamba pantai nih..

There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

Mariah Carey: Hero

R.a.i.n.b.o.w. oftheday dimanakah

salam ppl.

i have many3 things to be done. and yet i clicked new post. (terbalik ngan imang aritu.)

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kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari, Dia turunkan hujan, bagi kilat, petir. kita pun sedih tanya mana hilangnya matahari. rupa-rupanya Allah nak tunjukkan pelangi.

ha, YES, We've heard that a lot. we've read that everywhre. but i think its just nice to remind MEself . hee :)

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'susahnyee jadi orang susah' *sigh*
of course lah kan, if we put it like 'senangnye jadi orang susah' then it wud be grammatically wrong sentence with contradict adjectives. kan? ntah. i'm bad at grammar, apetah lagi english's.
haihh.

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*fon dah kena bar :(
*alternative number OSO dah kene bar :((
*keje part time pun leceh gilek . mau rabun mata gua dok menaip nih..(haha ye, exaggerated. hopefully tanak la rabun. kang tadek duit juge mau bayar spek/contacts/laser treatment.peh2!)

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question: kenape susah je nak cari duit?
answer: like duhh~ if its so easy to cari ,then it wont be valuable then ppl wont be blinded by it bile ade byk then it wont be the means for EVERY transaction,, then bla3. ala its logic lah man.

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yes but of course except ure already born rich princess with tiaras on ur head and living in a castle or at least rumah mcm Richie Rich.. then money is SO not the issue lah by then. kununnye pada masa tu u the rich princess are craving for love, and on top of ur mountains of money&gold u can loudly claim that 'money cant buy happiness' .

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but happiness oso cant buy money. kan? hahaha
yela, not necessarily. in special occasion maybe la can . iye?

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ok silelah kan alak ini merepek saje kejenye.. gahhaha.
back to work. ergh o_0;

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oh just to comfort ; here's another pic of rainbow. cepat la sikit rainbow dtg ye :) huhuh



oh ya, rainbow for tomorrow: yeay~! esok pegi ESQ! huhu mahalnye..hopefully its worth my weekend and the money and hopefully (and most importantly) I'M WORTH IT

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying

One Republic: Come Home 

but really, life is daily...

salam ppl

Lately evrythings been too fast. like SUPER. f a s t .

like:

1) athirah + mundzir lovebirds since skool, now got baby boy oreday. (refer to the prev post)

2) amera nikah kawen already. for a better view, u can read uswah's post here

3) i'm in my last chambering month ;D cant wait, really.

4) nadia is now 5 months pregnant

5) atikah will be delivering her 2nd baby around May.

6) husna already got offered PKP (Penolong Kanan Pendaftar) position.

7) che pah oso getting married on this 23rd, kat s'pore (of which i really3 wanna go)

8) and paling penting..... THIS YEAR I'M 24!! goshh seriouslyy???! i still cant chew on that just yet. SOUNDS soO OLD.. when i dont actually feel OLD enough... got wat i mean?

obviously, i am still in the state of unsure of wat to become la kan.. sangat le mcm nak pegi oversea (GOD help me la kan..) to further stadi ke..or even jd baby sitter sape2 yg nak pegi sane pun stil can do (oh specifically UK). asalkan, keluar aja dari malaysia, bumi di mana semua orang sudah berkahwin. hahaa cant run from reality , can i?

currently, am trying to earn extra money. i took this part time job of data entry. peh i thot cam simple je keje nye, alih2 cm banyak gile,, haha belum ape2 dah sakit bahu! hahaha

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on ANAK HALAL

i was recommended by kak izyan to watch this movie,, she said this movie sangat BEST. hmm it has never crossed my mind to watch this movie. yela,,cite melayu ni selalunye not much a difference la kan between one another.. but anyways, i gave it a shot la kan. kebetulan takudin bwk balik umah the dvd. so i watched the first time with mama. and we were like.. hmm bole la. but not la up to the standard that i wud recommend ppl the way how k. izyan recommended it to me. haha ;p. but i hasut uswah n shema to watch the movie just to kutuk fasha sandha and to see how beautiful maya karin is. man, mmg lawa la kan makcik tuh! (for me la at least. like sweet gila muka die.. ) and of kos le..fasha sandha tuh mmg harus dikutuk2 aja sifat gedik dan lenggokan serta bunyi suaranye ituh.. very over beyond menyampah la i kan. dapat plak si fasha tu role yg gedik and cam anak org kaya loser poyo nyusahkan orang, ha lg la WAJIB dikutuk2 hahahaha. nasib la kau. (its not like u're even gonna read this kan fasha?! haha this is mengumpat 2.0 version virtual o yeah).

well u see, the thing is, for ME, apehal cite melayu slalu je nak buat movie yg bajet sosial abes...just to prove the point yg 'inilah dia reality masyarakat kita sekarang' i mean,,, hello lah stakat nak tunjuk realiti pompuan2 seksi tuh,,helo, i keluar rumah je dah bole nampak tak payah u nak tunjuk2 lam tv kot? i mean , i think its just quite a lame excuse la for u guys to belakon menggedik2 peluk2 laki pompuan as if u never learnt kat skolah agama/skola petang that its haram la kot kan to even pegang tangan laki/pompuan bukan muhrim kan and let alone peluk? tu sume i stepped into the LRT oso can see lah kan muda-mudi berkelakuan gitu. wth la kan skrip drama gini. and oso nak tunjuk yg reality meminjam duit along adalah bahaya, juga telah ditunjuk di dalam cite Gangster (kot, yang rosyam nor blakon tuh tak ingat le tajuk) juga berclubbing sana sini. and again, hello , our society dah oreday exposed to those, i mean, sape la tak tgk berita just to see ramai orang2 kene tangkap masuk lokap kuar2 dari club tu.. hm.

my point is,,, IF btol2 u wanna make a 'inilah dia reality masyarakat kita skarang' kinda film, u can, silakan, but PLEASE,,,, with a STRONG plot kot? plus oso STRONG storyline.. just for us the viewer to see that there IS A POINT watching this kinda movie.. setakat nak tgk kehancuran hidup orang2 tuh.. its not wat viewers wanna see seriously. like ppl used to say, 'kalo kat india tu, dah kene bakar dah panggung tuh' . got wat i mean?

and yeah, again, wat i can get from ANAK HALAL - maya karin seriously cantek & sweeet. hahaa . and yeah, needless to say - fasha sandha , walaupun mmg le cantek kan, tp akan sentiase tidak disukai. and i thot i was the only one yg rase sumthing wrong on her voice part, but apparently..many others feel the same. take my boss. hahaha

oh, looks like im not finish lg pasal anak halal. die mcm ade banyak tertinggal bahagian2. its like we hv to paham2 sendiri. tp part yg bermanja2 tak tentu pasal,,tu lame plak. tak faham la director mcm ni. tatau ke die kalu die prolong je lg babak2 gatal gitu,,pelakon (yg mmg le dah terberdosa sbb blakon pgang2 tangan ke ape) yg play the prolonged mesra part, pengarah tu jugak yg will bear for their sins, no? hmmm

faham tak? (oh yea sorry, its not like u guys cant comprehend malay kan? haha ;p)

another thing, i REALLY hate the way they blame like EVERYTHING that happened to them on TAKDIR. apehal kan. sikit2 'semua nye terletak pada takdir. takdir manusia tu lain2' u know wat, u can always pray and CHANGE for that.. doa bole ubah sume tu..only if we really WANT to.. yes true we dunno where our ending wud be, but just DONT ASSUME..

oh bile mengutuk atau mengumpat, mmg tak sedar so sudden this post dh jd panjang ;> hee. yea but then again, those are my humble (la sgt) opinion on that movie. just another layman's view. not somewhat professional movie critics or some sorts..so dont bother lah.

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u know what, i guess im not an event person. like kalu ade celebration/wedding/any special occasion, when i start delaying posting about it in this blog, i'll endup not making any post bout it at all. hahah. take amera's wedding (though lots i wanna share with u guys cuz verrry3 interesting her grand wedding celebration) oso,, papa's bday celebration dulu2 bulan 12 tuh. haha yeye je amik gamba papa potong kek, ingat nak letak kat blog..endup tak wat pun. huhu. that's SO me okay,, when my MALAS take hold of myself. but that wud only happens like..all the time. haha!

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'semua orang jatuh cinta. cuma ada cinta yang terang, ada cinta yang samar-samar, dan ada yang gelap' (Johanna @ Maya Karin spoke her line in Anak Halal -one of few things i got ;p annnd i kinda like it. heee ;D )

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its just an aggravated coincidence, no?

have a heart that never hardens...

salam ppl.

presenting....

Marwan Aliff b. Muhammad Mundzir ;)

well, i just got back from athirah's . and above, is our first deseventh's baby (being a child of d7th+d7th) ;D

ok supposedly atirah was due to deliver on 8th feb which is this coming friday (which coincides with our beloved amera's nikah day) however ntah mcmane when she went for her checkup on last wednesday, the doc said the baby had stopped moving, and cuz of insufficient water or watnots (sorry i really suck with this medic jargons so i just remember things that i cud understand. haha), the baby had to be delivered there and then. i mean, a.s.a.p lar, otherwise there cud be a risk of the baby drowning. hence a very comel baby boy weighing 2.46kg was born and named Marwan Aliff (not very sure on the double 'f' , saje je letak kasi sedap sket) . according to his ibu and abah (rasenye la munze dipanggil abah) hidung marwan mcm munze, and his mouth mcm ibunye. but me, all that i noticed is his eyes are very chinese-like. hm.
ape2 pun sgt cute la kan. suke ;))

i've finished my final exams . weehee ;)) settled with the paper quite early, then we melepak agak lame until 2.30pm. huhu. wat a person have i become lah kan.. haih. anyway it was fun . haha

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have a heart that never hardens, and a temper that never tires, and a touch that never hurts. - charles dickens
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