monday bliss

salaam

as im writing this, im struggling with my ever-so-called-girl-stuff-pms. dari semalam lagi dah sakit, but yesterday's was lot worse. dah la kat klcc, konon nak teman nadia shoping, tapi when my face has turned green menahan sakit, we decided to cut it short je lah.
so its a monday bliss-i dun have to go to work. i doubt i can work as usual with this pain in my womb. so i just msged my colleague to inform that i cant come today. hah slambe.

as im writing this, my dearest friend iman might be cuddling her first newborn daughter whom i dint knowwhich name her mother had finally chose to award her. hehe. of kos, after sum consultation with me. hehe(perasan)
so its a monday bliss- iman having a new baby. her life means a lot more. her life has upgraded to a new level, a level where all girls wanted to be(okey save for other heartless who doesnt one any kids). CONGRATULATIONS iMAN ;)))

as im writing this, my mind is doing its usual things, thinkng, analyzing, doing its own math in its own way. i dunno. okay, situation is, ive been to my seniors blogs, theyre all of course most of them either already called to the bar, or already securing a job, lecturer, etc2. so i read their entries. its like 1yr age gap between me and them is actually as wide as a football stadium. i mean, their entries are all very (and i mean VERY) intellectual, academical, eye-opener, and any other positive words that i can and have to search in the dictionary if i were to describe them. not only the topics, isi2 of every post they wrote, but also the language, the vocabs they use. well suffice for me to say that my blog is like a 10 yr old's while theirs are like well..24's , really demonstrate their age.
and why is it counted as monday bliss oso? because after the dreadful experience (dreadful huh. being kinda awaken by those high spirited and quite emo writings, for me it sure is) i came back to my own blog and suddenly i felt home :)) so i came to think that, no matter how hard i wanna be like someone else, i think i can only be myself and thats only wat im good at. i may have tried to imitate others, i may have tried to act like others, but to no avail. im only can be me. and its not that bad tho, cuz sumtimes being contented with myself gives me a nice feeling and it is all i can do rite now. if i wanna accelerate to the next lvl, i'll just have to educate myself. and its quite hard, considering im a slow learner. haha so, i guess i'll live in my own space. its rather comfort there. doesnt mean i can stay the way i am. i'll try to be better. but well, lets just say ill give myself sum time. afterall u are the one who knows urself better than anyone else .. kan kan? hehe

Motivation such an aggravation

Accusations don't know how to take them

Inspiration getting hard to fake it

Concentration never hard to break it

Situation never what u want it to be
-Sum 41: Motivation-

dare to dream?

our dreams are defined by our hearts
our future is designed by our dreams

i hate... i love...

Salam Sejahtera

okey these are officially areas in KL/Selangor that i seriously hv no jodoh watsoever. at all.

1) PJ (Petaling Jaya) - OOH Yes this is soo true. tagune nye area pj, sgt susah dan memeningkan kepale!

2) Kajang/Bangi - ohh bencinye jugak pagi td sesat dekat 3 jam. daymn~ thanx to the preggie, i managed to find my way to the Land Ofis and balik ofis like, FINALLY?~!

3) Shah Alam - yeah, reward lah this town as the most strategic city/town watsoever. my conscience is clear : i hate those roundabouts. seriously.

4) in short, i hate any areas with all those pening2 Sections. mcm Section 2 ke, section 4,5, 17,25 and the number goes onn,, and more peningly all these seksyen come together with those roundabout. aiyoh.. so pening.

well it seems that im not left with much choices isnt it. i live in KL, yet im also not any better around KL city either. at least here in KL, whenever i got lost in this city, there's alwys signbods im familiar with. any signage with the words Jalan Tun Razak sure lightens me up evrytime im lost.

frankly speaking(or writing in this matter), i dont even know wats the purpose of coming with the list above. when u gotta go to any of those place, u GOTta go rite. no point ranting much about it. wenever im lost, or salah pilih jalan, i'd say to myself: okey so now i know,, ohh rileks, this is experience. and it s sure as hell PRICEY. (yeap, having to spend almost RM30 for a long sesat drive is sure as hell burning a HUGE hole in my pocket. and im just a chambie, i dont get paid as much :( )

okey enough rungutans already.

today i attended the orientation session for legal aid programs. quite surprisingly it was fun. any other chambies who came were fun as well. i met with 3 uncles who s currently doing their chmbering oso. so cute lah them and so nice. one of the uncle, who was sitting in front of me, named Johari. he even guessed that i might be the daughter of his fren. i was "eih, ade org name mcm saye ke?" and he said, "ramai je. yg bace berite tu pun name camtu" so he was referring to the famous Norazlina A'la. haha. anyhows, all the uncles were so funny and well, cute.
i chatted with this Indian girl (cant remember her full name, she said just call her Koki or was it Kiko? aih tak ingat), who was SOO funny and lively, but quite humble, considering she studied in the UK lah kan.. and rite now a chambie at SKRINE..
all in all, i just love the orientation. gotta meet with other chambies, oso met with other classmates yg dah lame tak jumpe, these are therapy. rather than being trapped in the office. o crap. gile boring.

p/s: iman, lengkali kalo ade masak ape2, bitau awal2, leh ana makan masakan anti. haha jgn sakit perut sudah.. :p
p/p/s: apehal keybod buat hal?! huruf A susah sket nak tekan. isshhhhhh

"Freedom is the right of all sentient beings"

although this come quite late ann,,tapi...
SILE LAH SUME ORANG GI TGK TRANSFOMERS OKEYH!!~
seriously friggin kool!! kicking ass kool okey,,!!


downturns:
-tickets were sold out, wat were left only the front seats..! ahh dem2
-beli le jugak an,,so the whole 2+ hour mendongak je keje. ahh tensen
but just imagine, even with that suck+uncomfy position pun dah terase ke'best'an cite tuh..wat more if watch it properly kan,,,duduk selesa2,,kalo kat umah tuh,,sambil baring2 ke an... pehhhhhh sure lagi masyuk cite uh.. gile ah camne org US ni terer benor wat movie??!!!!
okay2, dont compare with malaysian muvi le kan...its like ure comparing between a baby and a mature 24yr old. got wat i mean?
aiseh that wasnt too mean was it? mau mengamuk org2 filem kat msia. haha im only saying facts here baby. ;p

come tuesday is my short call day. where i'll have to be represented by any lawyer conditionally must hv a practicing certificate. the process will only takes well the most is 5minutes je. so the lawyer will somewat certified that all my filings of the form required by the court (for my admission as chambering student) , were all true la. then the court pun setuju. ala tu je
okey so here's the cool fact - my short call date is as the same as this one kiut UITM student. haha best tak?! die penah dtg uia dulu representing uitm in a mooting competition. haha who wud hv thot gotta meet him again. hahahah
supporting cool fact - the day i found out he's on the same date(i checked it kat court le) , then i bumped into him at bar council and he tegur me. i was like. whoaa..mantain2. ala walaupun die tegur tak sampai 3 ayat2 inquiry je, but stil, whaa... (patutnye emot yg air liur meleleh2 cm blog imang. hahaha)
so this tuesday will meet him. KOT. haha pastu wat sucks is, byk le plak an pimples here and there skang. cis. dah la dapat jumpe die cm 2 tahun skali an,,perlu la muke ni tanak licin plak skang~~~ dem dem

okey esok mau kije. pesanan sebelum tidur, i'd like to thank Michael Bay for having to create such an AWWWWESOMMME superbly hands down friggin kicking ass kool movie. EVER. and, to all autobots out there, u guys kick ass man. sile la dtg malaysia and bumble bee sile la jadi my car. hihihi sangat lah berangan dan sgt lah over. haha

p/s: imang, suwah, lengkali nonton cite ni lagi ya~ haha. tak kesah la dvd ke ape an. janji puas ati!!!!

"My heart did time in Siberia
Was waiting for the life to come true
'Cause it's all so dark and mysterious
When the one you want doesn't want you too"

BSB - Siberia
(sob2 :~< )

manggis

alhamdulillah
wish granted. just ate manggis, papa + tame just got back from Johor.
:))
tu la.. ha tu belum kat syurga lagi tuh..baru rase nak makan manggis, papa dah beli manggis.
ceh padehal dah call papa wat suare merajuk2 an apsal asik beli durian dan tidak manggis.
haih laa anak perempuan mengade2.
kau ingat kau chantek?~ (for the 2nd time quoting imang quoting her fren ijam)

musim durian

hm
ibarat menunggu durian yg taknak gugur pada musim durian.
frustrating isnt it
apetah lagi kalo menunggu durian yg taknak gugur pada musim manggis?
wait. that sounds .. pretty acceptable. doesnt it. hehe

-who cares i dont like durian pun. why the hell wait.
-oh imang n iman suke durian. and my whole family. kecuali hikmat. hm nasib baik ade hikmat.
-and oh, nak makan manggis :( bukan ke selalunye musim manggis serentak dgn durian?

pointless.
haiihh (oopss..laki tak suke pempuan mengeluh. lah peduli ape? kau ingat kau chantek? (quoting imang, quoting ijam her fren that ive never met b4) )


and why de hell i got so over freaked out by durian? kesiannye durian tak bersalah!

gastrik

815 - telan ubat with an empty stomach

830 - arrived at office, tummy felt uneasy

9+ - erghh sakitnye perut

10 - told en.hadi im having stomach ache, asked permission to go home (peh slambe!!) he said okay. dah sakit perut nak wat camne or so he said

1030- makan nasi kat rumah + milo+ quaker oat , tiger balm letak kat perut. called kak yong, she said i got gastrik.the first n last time i got this was before my admission kat main camp gombak.

11am-6pm - terbaring atas katil, sakit on n off. come n go.

630 - makan ubat gastrik drpd kakyong. kakyong bg MC skali :)

now - makan ubat skali lagi dan reporting to dearest blog ..

after this - will be having my beauty sleep

tomorrow - keje.. :~~( tapi duduk rumah dlm keadaan sakit pun takde maknenye.....

what man is a man who does not make the world better

in the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful

You see, none of us choose our end, really. its our actions that would decide.
no one wants to end up in a hot, burning place. we all wanna have a good ending. yet in this world, there's too much excuses, too much temptations, too much satisfactions too much demands to be fulfilled. all put us in dilemmas. old ppl say diluah mati emak, ditelan mati bapak. so we doubt.

but would all that compensate? we neglect what Allah told us to do, only to please ppl in this world, of which, we wont know if we will ever gonna meet them in the next life; the everlasting destination. no its not worth it. so we try as much to abide what syariah has prescribed for us, try as much not to be tangled up in a conflict between the interest of our surroundings, and of course, Allah's interest. what about our interest? well Allah says if we protect Allah's interest then he'll protect what's ours. only then that we convinced. that its the right choice. of course it is. but Shaitan as always, whispering all their sweet destructive advices. suggesting if we do this, only once, then its okay what~.. their whispers forming becoming our own excuses when we debating within ourselves whether or not we should do this, or do that, our omissions, our actions, our inactions.

so its not easy. it never is. and not going to be. thats why this world is a test. for us all. and a test wont ever be easy will it.. pointless it will be if it is easy. thats where our guidance comes in. Allah has already provide for us Quran n Sunnah so that we wont go astray. then again its up to us whether to take the guidance or resort to any other options that blinded us in this life. in this temporary life, temporary world. at the end of the day, our actions will define whether we follow the syariah, or we dont. follow our hearts, or our heads? its our souls that we are protecting.

i once heard/read sumwhere they say if we're doubting whether wat we are doing is wrong/right, then ask our hearts. if it feels comfortable, then its a good thing. if we feel uneasy about it, then forget bout it. but then if our hearts are kotor already, then no use lah this method. (baru teringat rupenye mcm dalam nasyid hijjaz tuh. hehe)

hehe just a thought...

****

A king may move a man.
A father may claim a son.
But remember that,
even when those who move you be kings or men of power,
your soul is in your keeping alone.

When you stand before God, you cannot say,
''But l was told by others to do thus'',
or "that virtue was not convenient at the time''.
This will not suffice.
Remember that.

There, at the end of the world,
you are not what you were born,
but what you have within yourself to be.

-quoted from Kingdom of Heaven

****


''What man is a man
who does not make the world better?''



****
sile lah denga Plain white T's - Hey There Delilah . luv luv luv this song v v much! ^^ (quite unappropriate with this post eh..huhuh..)

Boston
by Augustana

In the light of the sun
Is there anyone?
Oh, it has begun

Oh dear, you look so lost
Your eyes are red when tears are shed
Swirls you must have crossed, you said
"You dont know me, you dont even care."
Oh yeah, she said.
"You dont know me and you dont wear my chains"
Oh yeah?

The essential yet appealed
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field

When flowers gaze at you
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you, you said

"You don't know me and you don't even care."
Oh yeah, she said,
"You don't know me and you don't wear my chains."
Oh yeah...

She said: "I think I'm going to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
Where no one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
I'll fly 'em out to Spain

Oh yeah, I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I was tired
I think I need a new town
To leave this all behind

I think I need a sunrise
I'm tired of a sunset
Here it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice, oh yeah...

Boston
Where no one knows my name
Yeah...no one knows my name
No one knows my name..."

its a nice song indeed, in luv with the lyrics, piano and all..lalala~ think i'll start a new life. haish think i better berhijrah. in every sense of it. (i wish)

curi tulang macam seronok

hehehe im at my office, curi2 tulang, pasang internet, intai2 blog orang. hahaha
living my own pace at work. kehehe
ini sebagai balasan kerana mlm td ive lost my precious beautiful sleep, to finish the Teaming Agreement, and only to be rejected when i showed to my Master (boss la in other words) pagi tadi at 11am.
jadi..padan muke i. haha

ive just received a letter from the Bar Council Legal Aid Centre. they also sent the list of the places for me to do my legal aid.hmmm tak tau nak pilih katne,, syariah Clinic mcm best, Dock Brief oso cam cool , but ive never had any experiences dealing with criminal litigation, so..why risk kan,, Sungai Buloh and Kajang Women Prison Clinic pun mcm best jugak, altho quite a scary thot meeting up with prisoners kan.. huhu so..nanti la decide, of kos wud like to cari kwn to do same2 first, altho we might not be scheduled to bertugas the same day, but if got someone i know doing the same place as mine, that wud be comfortable isnt it.

for unknown reasons, i kinda feel a bit bliss+happy2 receiving the letter.. alah just another letter from bar council kan.. but watdaheck, the feeling that im gonna gain another experience ive never had before, kinda exciting.. hehe :D

seronok pulak bace blog org,, rase nak transform my blog into something unusual, extreme uniqueness, but then, feel like wanna tone it down..like having peace of its own.. well watdahel im talking about nih. point is, its just good to know ppl, feels good to read other ppl's thots, kinda inspiring, kinda gives u an exquisite feeling (apekah maksud exquisite? is it appropriate? cikgu english wan madihah, please correct ey.. ;) ) its good to enter into other ppl's lives, wat more if u are able to touch their's kan?

just another boring entry... ;)


i promise i wont curi tulang again, this is my first attempt-and almost succeed since its almost 6pm already. haha . tomorrow gonna do all the tertangguh calls to make, gonna complete the S&P Agreement, and will fly out of the office before lunch to meet up Kak rosnee!! at 3pm at KLbar (there'll be this conveyancing stuff course) yeay!!.. somehow i just realized i miss her quite banyak22.. hihihi

another....

okey so i found another survey that id like to saje2 buat. hahaha. tho wan said she's kinda got tired with all these survey craps..but who cares eyy.. its my blog anyway.. muahaha :p and hey, wan, this kinda reminds me of Brooke when she wants to decide over sumthing. kan kan? hehehe

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next
button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN
NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!


IF SOMEONE SAYS "I CAN'T DO THIS!!"
YOU SAY?
> if you steal my sunshine - Len

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR
PERSONALITY?
> the getaway - hillary duff (i wish)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
> sholawat - Ungu (wah wah wah...bagus banget sihhhh ;))) )

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
> yellow - coldplay (yeap2, i feel yellow, so shallow..aha it rhymes)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
> heavily broken - the veronicas (huhuh kesiannyee..)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
> come on - Ben Jelen (?)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
>happy birthday - flipsyde feat. Piper (apehal)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
> surgaMu - Ungu (hehe syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu....keredhaan Allah depends on keredhaan ibubape.. ;) )

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
> Mr James Dean - Hillary Duff (HOi This is soo NOT true)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
> sway - Bic Runga (lets sway onn bebeh)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU
LIKE?
> Ruby - Kaiser Chief ("let it never be said. the romance is dead" - wat is this song trying to tell ME? hahah)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
> here by me- 3 doors down (well u urself is the best companion. true. no?)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW
UP?
> somewhere in between - lifehouse (this is ssSOooo true..kehkehkeh thank u mr playlist. cey over)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE
PERSON YOU LIKE?
> permata keluarga - saujana (hahahahahah lawak gile tak pasal2)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
> dont go away - oasis (hahaha that a sign?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
> maafkan inkarku - ungu (haha belum ape2 cm dah ade wat salah ngan suami..hahaha)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
> cupids chokehold - gym class heroes (??)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
> i saw it on your keyboard - hellogoodbye (haha)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
>wonderful - everclear (heee ;) tricky huh)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS
> menanti sebuah jawaban - padi (jawapan apa buk?)

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU
REPOST?
> ku harap Cinta - nowseeheart ..pehh jiwang no..

its 1am on the dot. gotta sleep now... sweetdreams to myself..
oh ye, upon request, i'd like to tag my own sister...a.k.a imang. hehe

p/s: am currently listening to How Do I Live - Lee Ann Rimes . terrsangat la romantik nye lagu ni. best2...

sunday updates

Salaam :)

1) today is tame's 20th bday! haha. dah tua dah my not-so lil brother. well, die dah tua, apetah lagi diriku ini kan? hehe well like they always say : stil young at heart . hee :)

2) yesterday: 2 weddings in 1 day. phew.. double the inspiration huh? well it should be kan. haha
#1 nadia + ahmad
majlis sebelah ahmad. sgt cantek la kot kawen tepi swimming pool. huhu but well, its Malaysia. expect tropical climax..at it MAXimum HOt. haha sian kat pengantin. but its wedding, better got the SUN to shine rather than the rain to pour. kan kan.. hm needless to say, baju pengantin and the colour plus the mekap all cantek2 le kan.. best2
oh i was a bit distracted at the majlis becoz sebok mengejar luqman yg kemaruk belon. huhuh

best tak best tak,,,depan swiming pool~

#2 kak shileen+ her 7years bf! wauu.. bes gile kan
wahhh suami nye kiut gile! hahaha ..bole tak suke laki org. haha mmg kiut gile couple tuh smalam. cam budak kecik main kawen2 . bole tak? haha..besst. mekap kak shileen pun cantek. hm tak sempat amik gamba dgn die, we were rushing to atikah's home sbb baby tikah mengamuk. hehehm, tak sempat nak amik gamba ngan pengantin, so this is the pelamin. jadi le kan..

atikah, her baby + hubby :)

3) yesternite: tido umah atikah kat shah alam! alak, husna + nad gi tido umah atikah. hehe best banget eyy.. rumahnya sgt cantek okey! nak amik gamba tp bese la kamere tuh kalo indoor tak lawo nanti die absorb segala cahaye dan die bg flash ke ape tah lalu hasil nye tak cun. senang cite., tade la gamba nak upload pun from atikah's house. hehe. but me+husna can feel the coolness of having ur own cribs. ur own place to crash, whre u can decorate all u want. and it helps having a decorational hubby too (decorational- my way to describe that her husband likes to decorate and very bersemangat of doing so. but if that word exist then its cool le) hehe to sum it up, rumah atikah cantek! dan kemas! dan jangan harap la if i to own one pun, bole jadi cantek cmtuh! haha even the small room tuh pun tak terjage. penuh dgn sampah sarap.huahaha talk about membuka pekung di dada :P
ha,, somi tikah tu siap buat ade satu frame besar nih..where he put cards that he used to give to atikah zaman2 diorang bercinte dulu..and many of the cards were handmade as well. hah so cam cantek nye kan.. lupe nak mention, her husband tuh sgt le creative. and even atikah said, the one sebok decorating the house is her hubby ler. siap ade pistol besar tergantung kat dinding. haha from the deco in one's house, i think we get to see the part of that person expressing himself. kan?

thats all for the new updates.

Swedish sunset
"happiness is a Swedish sunset;
it is there for all, but MOST of us look the other way and lose it."
i, too wonder why the person quoting this put swedish sunset.. wat about other sunsets? however, obviously thats also the reason why i am quoting this ;)