salaam

"take it as it comes" . of all these years ive been living, i've learned that i live my life from day to day. i dont plan. i dunno why, but i just dont. paling jauh plan yg betul2 smangat punye and will try to observe will be 2weeks. later than that, , hmm tak penah kot.
think ive been living with the swedish's prinsip as quoted at the beginning : 'take it as it comes'
hm hm
wats the point of planning when u dont follow the path towards it?
wats the point of planning when u dont even know if the plan will go as planned?
wouldnt it be more frustrating then?
wouldnt u be hating urself when it doesnt go ur way?

"those who fails to plan are planning to fail"
so im wrong, am i not?
i know there's sumthin wrong with me sumwhere,, but i just tend to let it go. i leave it in God's hands.. Allah knows best, i'd say
but wouldnt i be tooooo dependant then?
i mean, its wrong rite? i need to do my part, then only can leave the rest to Allah. not main lantak aje,,

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and so im confused on my career path.
what will i be in the future?
will i be working and being paid BIG time of fortune?
will i be doing what i like to do, where my interest lies? just WHAT is my interest punn??
will i be be busy like hell like careerwoman who doesnt even care bout petty stuffs?
will i be working at all?
will i be living at all?
hmmmmmmmmmm

most of all, i just wish to be ME.what kinda person exactly ME is? haha no idea, really.tho its quite amusing a 23 yr old cant really descrice herself. dayyyyymn(quoting imang's lecturer.. hhaha)

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in spite of all that, i have hopes. yeap. i do have hopes in life. and i'l live with that...

"I'm troubled with doubt

Though I know it is not true
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The more that I think, the more it seems true

And now it means more

Than I ever meant it to "
Ash: Lost in You

apehal ann,, mood mlm ni cam merepek..haha

credits to iman :)

Salaam

upon suggestion by iman, i did this super kewl~ quiz. well its fully described by pictures, and all the pics were so cantik and so, its nominated and appointed as the koolest quiz ever. kool as in chillingfreezingfriggin cool, as in ice cold, as in .. err.. well it is highly advisable for all of u to try it okay. hehe.
very typical of me, i tend to think wat the quiz says about me are.. well 82.959% true :p

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

ohh and i'd like to tag (heck i didnt actualy get wat it means by TAGging ppl, tho i stil get the idea. but why TAG?haha) anybody who reads this post. especially imang, hehe u asked for it babe.

ohh song for today. (im making this a favorite habit of mine. haha)

"Cos all of the stars

Are fading away

Just try not to worry

You'll see them some day

Take what you need

And be on your way

And stop crying your heart out"
oasis: stop crying ur heart out

come monday, the day i hate :(

so plan mlm ni iyelah tidak tido, tujuannye adelah untuk membaca tenancy agreement. but as usual..

12:11 malam- still chatting with nadia n iman. haha how i love chatting like there's no tomorow. like tomorow is cuti as well. like tomorow is the 2nd sunday. how i wish *sigh*
- still havent took my bath
- sign from God #1: i just happened to sit on bekas muntah luqman, so need to take my bath ASAP. haha
- sign from God #2: i dc'ed like 100 times already . so just stop chatting la patutnye kannn
12:26 malam - berjaye make a move to bilik air..huhu
12:55 malam - hmm dah settle, bole start bace. ahh tp chat best la pulak... lek jap ahh
1: 07 pagi - alaaaa dc lakkkkk.. ala apesal nak bengang kan.. i was supposed to buat kerje pun kan. no need internet pun. huhu but this chatting kinda getting addictive
and best lek~
1: 55 pagi - alaa tak start agi.. hmmm...
2: 16 pagi - so letssee wat this agreement is all about..hmm

anyway its resolved for me, if i cant finish it tonite, i stil have 4 nites to stay up. biarkan tak cukup tido. biarkan penat. thats wat i need rite? need to be busy all the time. so that i can block my head from wandering on other petty stuffs which i had restricted myself from thinking (which doesnt work out anyway). anyway, i need to get my hands off of this blog first. it definitely is a part of the many obstacles for me to do my assignment nihh. haha

eh jap..
2:31 pagi - takudin: " roti bakar jom" ergh... baiklah..perut gue pun udah makin lapar... aahh


so ciao for now okay?

"There exists a star above

That always steals my stare

And there exists a star on stage

That never seems to care "

Hellogoodbye: i saw it on your keyboard

oo yeah tomorrow's friday!

Salaam

i signed in kat YM tadi. an offline msg from wan caught my eyes. and the msg definitely touched my heart.

"Bawalah hatimu mengunjungi tiga tempat.
1- ke tempat org membaca al-Quran tidak kira sama ada kamu ikut membacanya ataupun kamu sekadar mendengar pembacaan org lain.
2- kamu menghadiri majlis pengajian yang mengingatkan kamu kepada Allah.
3- kamu mencari satu waktu yang sunyi, contohnya di waktu malam dan ketika itu kamu bangun melaksanakan ibadat kepada Allah serta memohon kepadanya agar diberikan ketenangan dan kedamaian hati kpdmu.

Jika selepas melakukan kesemua itu jiwamu masih tidak tenteram, mintalah kepada Allah agar digantikan hatimu dengan hati yang lain kerana hati yang kamu miliki sekarang ini bukan hatimu."

- Abdullah ibnu Masu'd

Meeting RooM

Salaam

haa malu sgt today i got locked up in the meeting room! okay so i was spending my lunch hour in the meeting room, smayang, then lepak2 bace sokkaba. when the lepaking hour ended at 2, i pun nak bukak le pintu kan, then
'eih, apsal takleh bukak nih?'
okay try lagi kan
*shit* apsal takleh bukak nih..
okay so nak wat ape skang kan..
ha,,nak ketuk2 pintu ke? klakanye..malu nye JUGAK..
so 'knock3' huhuhu then another 'knock3'
uu apsal tade org sedar, takkan i nak bang2 cam org gile kan..
ha call la..sebbaik ade henfon. eih tp mane apal nombo opis.
ha, sebbaik meeting room ade telefon. interkom sudey~
hm..brape ek nombo interkom yg ingat..
hmm *punch in* #106 ntah la ni nombo sape nih..sape2 je la
'azman sazira n partners,.. hello?'
'hello ..err ni alak ni.. huhu saye terkunci lam meeting room :"")' terrrrrsangat la malu
then only i heard keco2 kat luar. "eih alak terkunci lam meeting room"

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so the process to get me out of the room tu took about half an hour. and the door is now berlubang. huhu

Kalau kita boleh beli cinta
berapa pula harganya
Alangkah indah jika dicinta
kerana hidup lebih bahagia

Jika ditanya tentang cinta
Macam-macam lah jawapannya
Ada cinta yang membawa ceria
Ada cinta yang sanggup merana
Sanggup berkorban apa saja
Hilang kawan hilang keluarga
Lebih baik cinta pada yang ESA
Amy Mastura: cinta

i think i like today

the reasons:

1) its MOTHER's day! hehe

me+imang berjaye memperah otak kami yg udah berkarat ni utk membuat a mother's day card for our beloved mam. hehe. hope she'll love it when she receives it with teary eyed. cey perasan.

2) successfully stuffed my empty stomach with all the testing foods from each booth kat MIHAS. haha. so the monay is saved. and i was so kenyang la sgt tadi. free drink from more than 5 booths. haha bestnye.. mmg tujuan pegi td makan je la kan


3)managed to snuck out some freebies from Royal Chef's booth. hehe sbenanye mmg die bagi. hehe best btol ek exhibitor Royal Chef tuh ;)))))

one of the barang2 free yg berjaye dibawa balik ke
rumah-> hehe














4) haha i finally had drunk a beer. haha a non-alcoholic beer la tapi. so its halal la kan. aiseh lupe nak amik gambo tin die tadi. sebbaik tak mabuk. hahaha gilo apo.

so..the plan pegi MIHAS without luqman berjalan agak lancar. haha

"I think I like today

I think it's good

It's something I can't get my head around"
-angel and airwaves: good day

split personality disorder

yeap, maybe i have that.
haha.

this is my wallpaper all this while:


and this is my wallpaper kalo kat ofis:


hahaha...

ohhh i LOVE sundays..and i HATE mondays~

updated

Salaam
okey so i ve been busy. as in REaaaally B-U-S-Y.

1- work
and so i didnt update this blog about my workplace. just yet. seems that i need like a week or 2 to really figure out whther i like it or..no..lets just say to rate it. yeah, first day impression and 2nd day's and later on 5th day's...are totally contradicting. the voices in me arguing too much on this subject already. so to avoid confusions in this blog..lets just postpone this topic.
ehm, but i do admit that Working, is tiring. really. the fact that i dint update this blog evidenced that my body is just yet to adjust to this working mode.

2-life
the fact that im currently employed, which means i need to get out of this house at 8 and be back at 7 evryday, i can say that my life - has changed. hehe i mean, that goes without saying rite..
2(a) social life
thanx to nadia, my social life is not totally in the yesterday's bin. we went out for a movie, hanged out at mamak, hehe and this morning we went to the MIHAS exhibition. rase sangat bes jumpe mera+azhar skali..haha made me feel like old times kat uia. (not that old la..baru grad tak sampai sebulan, konvo pun belum lg) . i stil miss hanging out with the other UIAians frens tho.. budak2 law cam husna, atikah, eza nad etc. aritu jumpe husna pastu kitorang borak tak berenti. sgt rindunye nak hangout lagi dan lagi. but then life goes on kan. evrybody has their own life to run. so bile la nak jumpe lagi. kne tunggu sume free lek~
(b) family
having a baby (more like a toddler) at home, made u feel,, well thousands of mixed up feeling.cey exaggerating. anyway all sums up to JOY. i mean, the baby/the boy gets u tired, makes u scream, well,, u cud almost cry i'd say. but at the end of the day, u end up searching for him once u get home, u want to be the one picking him up at his nursery where he would call out ur name the moment he sees u. u end up regretting when u scolded him, feeling all sorry when he kinda afraid of u (result for the scolding). and the most obvious is that u'll miss him when he's not around.

3-today
as mentioned above, today we went to the MIHAS exhibition. bringing luqman along-totally a bad idea. ahaha. he was acting all naughty today -result for the insufficient of sleep. had to kejar him here and there. WE had to kejar him. so the we= alak, nadia, mera, azhar(mera). haha nasib baik azhar tu ade experience dealing with his anak2 sdare also. so die cam sgt helpful la. tp sgt kesian la kat all my frens tibe2 kene jage budak lak. huhu ppl around us dok geleng kepale je tgk budak restless yg dok main belon dan kejar2 belon membelah the crowd only to chase his grren belon! dan siap nak tumbangkan board mydin lagi. uhuuu i was SOO embarassed! huuhuu camno la nak jadi emak nih! iman, do prepare for this olrite~ huh and i was like a single mother yg bwk anak nakal jalan2 dan tak reti jage anak pun.hahaha.
note to self: lain kali nak bwk luqman, must bring along the mum as well. or at least bwk assistant yg paling expert kalo pasal luqman: imang. hehehe

so kitorang plan nak gi lagi MIHAS tu esok. amera ckp tomorow last day, so all the prices are probably going down much more cheaper la kan. haha. am gonna try out ALLL the testing foods available. am gonna stuff my tummy sampai lebam! haha jimat le lunch jawapnye!..

4) other stuff
ok so wat if ur old shoes that u luv most dah tak muat and it even hurts when u try to wear it? so buang je la kan?! aiyoh. somebody pleassee tell me to do so okay! well its even harder to throw it away when ur heart is reluctant to and is already fell for that shoes pun.so maybe just keep the shoe and just dont wear it okay.otherwise ur feet'll be hurt.
okay so is this pasal shoes pun anyway? walla im talking rubbish already.

roger and OUT~

ohh jap, ni baru bincang ngan uswah.
im adopting the usual org keje punye mode (cey uswah ayat same ngan kat ym td an :p) :-
1) I LOVE my precious weekend. sangat sayang ngan wiken, rase cm dah bole tahap bercinte dah ngan encik wiken nih
2) I HATE monday! for sure -eih tp this coming monday maybe suke kot sbb husna MAYBE akan dtg area pandan indah. then we can have lunch together!! yey!!
3) I LOVE waktu2 petang cam kol 4 ke atas .- im not actually a petang person. i hate petang sbenanye sbb panas dan tak suke warne senje yg keorenan itu. but eversince ive started working nih, tgk jam kol 4++ yeay! nak abes opis hour! leh balik!!
4) I LOVE jumaat!!! cuz the next day is tayah keje! huhu
5) wat else ek..tade ape dah kot.. nanti ade lagi, tambah lagi!

cerita hari pekerja

Salaam

so it seems that lately im having a really awful kind of bad mood. hehe then i started to realize that pimples tibe2 tumbuh melata kat muke ni ha. ceh.. am i nearing my period? padan a emo semacam (same ol' excuses girls ALWAYS use when they go naik angin all the time).

ouh all the muscles in my body feels so very tired. its believed to be the result of the long-tiring-full of sleep n sudden awaken-journey from kl-penang-penang-kl. so i gotta make this as a quick entry for today.

well theres one thing to ponder upon today.
yesterday amir recommended me to watch the secret: law of attraction. die siap bg link kat mininova punye torrent. so i thot its a movie. but he said, no its a documentary. ceh. biasenye documentary ni boring la kot. but i just gave it a shot anyway. its not like i dont hv the time. so download a. siang td baru tgk and guess what i think its the most catchy/moving/whatever documentary ive ever watched. haha starting die gempak je.
anyway, it basically tells the viewer that theres this secret/a key in life that when u master this thing, u can get anything u want in this life. money, love, respect, watever. so this secret is: the law of attraction. when u attracted to sumthin, that thing will be attracted to u- if u focus on that thing. so the thing here can be all that ure asking yg ive mentioned td [nak jd kaye? nak cinte? nak happy?] so all u gotta do is to concetrate ur thoughts on the thing u want tu.
sounds weird isnt it? takkan la pk je pasal bende tu terus dapat an.. haha. but logically speaking bole gak a sbenanye.
it starts with g.r.a.t.i.t.u.d.e . like feeling blessed with wat u have around u.
pastu tak ingat la kan.. but the most important part is that focus on what u REALLY want. then u'll find yourself acting on that direction. then the law or the universe will move its way to u. hah paham ke dok? lantak a kan..janji aku paham sudah.anyway the key is to be positive on urself. and be positive that u WILL get those things u want. okay? enuff motivation for tonite.

frankly speaking, i havent watched the documentary sampai abes pun. muahaha.. only watched like 1/3 of it.haha then i ajak my parents to watch it same as this kinda thing would be more appreciated by the dewasa ppl. hehe. pastu bile nak sambung tgk, si luqman tu , nak kene layan jugak since my parents dah concentrating (or sleeping for mama.haha) on that documentary.
haha so kene la sambung lg tgk mende uh..

anyway for those who hv a lil bit of interest to watch, u can donlod it kat this link:
http://www.mininova.org/tor/320853
its a good documentary i assure u. i've become more positive now (like 1.5%? haha) jadi la kan. im needing it since my brain+emo tersangat la reluctant to cooperate with the fact that i'll be starting my chambering lusa. aaaa :( oops..ternampak plak 98.5% negativity in me. haha

gudnite for now

*glad ive made sumone feel better-quite a good listener taleh blah jugak aku nih!* haha. one never knows

p/s: uhh so much for a quick entry kan..haha panjang la pulak rupenye